Friday, August 31, 2007
i was enlightened that ONE WEEK OF HOLS IS OVER and we only got 2 more weeks to go.. like wow.. play a bit slack at chalet for 4 days and one week is over!!!! have to come up with different rates for different pple.. resulting in no leftover money.. pasted all the receipts on the wall since wed night till fri morning which i believe most saw but didnt read them.. but thanks alot girls for the trust when u all paid me =) at least i only need to cover up the cost for one so i still had money to eat today!
i still haven build my pipeline =(
darren is such a lovely boy but im like dead tired fetching him to see high 5 and entertaining him when we're back home.. saw quite a few celebrities.. one appears pretty on screen but has really bad posture i dunno why.. slouch so badly.. and looks really thin.. thankfully some look really pretty in real life too.. i was just bored..
and before i know i gotta host the japanese student.. i realise hosting pple in OT isnt just about providing a home and introducing s'pore to them.. but theres alot of commitment and responsibility that comes with it!! its like a priviledge.. that seems like pple will be fighting for.. but why im doing is cos pple are not providing their homes thats why i volunteer to.. i dont think i will ever wanna go for placements in these countries.. i know what i want for myself.. as much as i wanna give opportunities to others.. im just too helpless to do anythg.. thanks to SC for the effort made in arranging for others to be bringing the guest ard.. at least i dont have to commit so much time to this..
after being traumatised for hours knowing that im posted to burns.. HB kinda like saved me.. the 5 mins during prep course that he talked abt burns was like inspiring as he always was since APOTC.. really make me look at burns from another perspective.. and like what? i can make use of my strength area? haha! hes just superb! therapeutic use of self!! which makes me feel more suited for the placement!! hope everythg just turns out well.. i dont mind being fully gown including my hair.. haha. gloves works wonders for my nails!!! damn happy abt that muahaha. still touched that bro knows my nails are my life!! and i gotta cover up the gold stripes of my nike shox. its like a dream come true that i cannot resist buying!!! spent a year looking for GOOD black shoes.. and i really mean a good pair. bata is a no-no choice for athelete's foot. wanted to buy shox in sec 2 or sth.. when i bot the nike pair.. but bro said i'll sprain my ankle if i ran in shox.. so happy that shox is still ard after like SOOO many yrs! anyway.. its so gd that the moment i put on both shoes and stand on them.. i feel like jumping(and i did), go hiking/trekking.. and do anythg in it.. so long as i dont have to take them off! haha
and its only when i buy a pair of good shoes.. that i realise my feet is becoming deformed after 1 yr of ballet.. arghx. its in the genes and there is nothing i can do abt it. hypermob joints.. increase joint spaces.. loose ligaments.. weak connective tissues.. western, chinese and physical diagnosis. either one must be right.. but i know my body well enuff that i dont want anymore deformities!!!! will i just give up ballet after this term?? anyway i'll be too tired after placements to travel down to btp.. seriously..
just give me some time..
for myself.......
life is short.. i really wanna cherish whatever i have. i grumbled. i lived. i look back and smile. i love my life.. and i know how much it strucked me when 2 of my friends left me.. with so much shock and pain..
its only during this month.. when we can be together again.. [881]
somehow i cant stop thinking of them.. a young father.. a teenager with bright future..
i'll nv forget the pain i felt when i know they were never gonna return.. the tears shed at mandai.. the quietness in my heart as the song keeps playing.. the bitter sour feeling when i hear the chants once again..
and i will live my life to fulfill the dreams they wished they could have fulfilled..
i wish i could just go pay them respect and let them know that they are still being missed and remembered for life..
girl, you gotta have attitude
11:15:00 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
i dont seem to have time to do what i wanted to do b4 exams were over.. and i dont know why haha..
anyway watched 881 with parents.. quite a waste bro n dasao couldnt go cos hes stuck in the jungle.. been a long time since the family watched movie tog cos onli hokkien movie we can all watch tog.. but it was a good show.. even the guys teared.. the song was really well written i guess..
thankfully im going to enjoy the chalet tmr 1st.. hope everythg turns out fine manx.. guess everyone got their way of doing thgs.. i shall ren and not be too hostile haha.. haven pack my thgs laaaa.. aiyo
thanks poochie sweetie for helping me buy thgs and thankfully u didnt ask me to transfer u the $$ first hee!
girl, you gotta have attitude
11:43:00 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007
i really miss sa days soooo much! so coincidental to meet jiayi at ice skating.. and lucky there was fionac to chat with me a little abt those times.. haha. eyecandy!!
really miss the uniform, the eyecandy-never forget maths and physics lecture, the crazy fun times during breaks, and track!!! manx i miss slacking with the trackers, practising relay, hurdling, playing soccer with so little pple n so 'big' court.. and i suddenly miss 77 alot!!!!
i still feel im blocking off some memories.. oh well..
i cant believe how much we ate last night.. but it was fun having 3 cars driving together along the empty road at night.. hee
im like sooo tired.. tmr still gotta wake up early n go out late.. and sunday still must wake up even earlier to send bro to AHM.. i look so "off-colour" by tonight manx..
and its CHALET next week.. madness
im still traumatised by SGH burns.. cant believe im so similar to san jie until we get posted to the same unit in the hospital.. faints..
and anw.. i NEED to go TANGS!!! and i got so much thgs to do..
girl, you gotta have attitude
10:52:00 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007
money is going down the drain this month.. but i shall just do what i can for the remaining 14 days..
is it to spark off my survival instinct once again? to think of how i can find different sources of income..
i've realised how excited i am when a treasured fren takes the initiative to talk to me.. how long have i not put in the effort to do something more..
i'm going to cherish my 3 weeks to build my pipeline!!
just a few more days b4 exams are over~! im getting back the hang of how exams shld be like.. nice!
girl, you gotta have attitude
1:12:00 PM
Thursday, August 16, 2007
i totally love The Secret!!!
manx its been a long long while since ive been soooo in love with a movie. heh. its just soooooo nice!!
ive watched so many of those transforming in time kinda shows but somehow this doesnt feel cliche in any way..
maybe he'll win some best story or best director thing.. super talented laaaaaa
and the girls sooo pretty.. the uniform soooooo nice la!!!! such a nice thing to watch while im not going to sch and preparing for exams.. 2 days ago.. haha. so its kinda less stressful when my papers are not yet approaching..
and i wanna go nebo at AMK to play that game!!!! and carrom!! and i wanna get my card asap so that i can go get my zone x card and play our bball game! make it thru stage 3!!! and maybe i'll grow stronger to play outrun haha!
love my life manx.
love dear for making everythg turn out so nicely for me. thanks for ur understanding.. and tolerance for my whining and unreasonable requests!!
19 sept 09! heh
i really dont feel like driving out.. i only want to park in sch, ur hse, and my hse!! im either putting 1 or 2 dollars coupon and use for 10-15 mins.. or getting 3 summons in less than a month.. im sick of going to the AXS machine at AMK to let it suck away my money!!
girl, you gotta have attitude
3:34:00 PM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
im totally distracted!!! AGAIN!
piles of books on the floor in neat category.. according to how im gonna approach the report.. i thought i have a clear idea how im gonna do the report.. but even if i thought i have enuff research on epilepsy and family n all.. what abt encephalitis??!! i only have one which i though was a good book.. but apart from all the pathology and all the very medical things.. there is not a single info written in all my research saying how it will affect the person.. what more development..
and im like just so nua and lazy i dont wanna do anythg!!!
i wanna go enjoy and play with dear.. i wanna lie down on my bed thinking of how i am going to make use of the space and my cupboard to put the maximum number of thgs w/o looking odd.. i wanna find a space somewhere to put my sewing machine!!!!!! i want a big room.. a house i can call my house.. but i know i cant.. so im just gonna live with it and let my creativity run wild.. i wanna slack at home in the afternoon playing daidee with my family and screaming across the tiny coffee table.. having dinner together and talking to each other.. i wanna go shopping.. walk into every shop to look at the pretty dresses.. find all the dresses that i need to attend 4 or maybe 5 weddings from this dec to next yr.. i wanna do up my enterprise!!! theres so many thgs i wanna do..
"i really dont mind studying for exams.. but i dont want to do the reports!"
i think sam said that one day.. and now its ringing in my mind!! i've packed the notes i need for exams.. 3 papers and im more than happy to study them cos i know where to study what.. and i hope i will still be happy over the next 2 weeks.. its gonna be over very soon! and i MUST make good use of my 3 weeks break.
really love reading pl's blog.. and i cant tell why.. maybe each time i read her blog i'll be reminded of my love for dear.. and be indulge in the sweetness.. or issit because her blog is just simply short and sweet.. get straight to the point..
im also waiting for days to pass.. and i guess i'll be one yr behind you.. NS seems to take such a long time.....
i want a house we can call OUR own.. a Mummy's corner with my rack of clothes and a red comfy sofa and carpet.. a Baby's corner thats a cushioned area with a mini playground for the little ones.. a Daddy's room for us to relax and to keep your favourite collections..
girl, you gotta have attitude
12:32:00 PM
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
never been so petty..
anyway im finally taking some time off the busy period. it feels like my life just stopped for a week.. haha. i didnt seem to have lived august and 7 days have passed!!! time flies man.. and in less than 20 days i will be having my long awaiting term break!! before clinicals..
theres so much i wanna do! i never managed to do anythg in all my past breaks. hope history doesnt repeat itself..
feels good to have swam. 1st lap was terrible aches from my entire body.. but as i swam on it somehow just feels great.. been a long long time since i swam in a rectangular pool with NOBODY else other than val n me in the water.. its a nice feeling =)
thanks gaigai for being so sweet n understanding!
its time for reportS and examS!
i wanna do sth i enjoy!
girl, you gotta have attitude
11:11:00 PM
