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Monday, July 30, 2007

i need time for myself!

im glad that i pull thru the last 2 days trying to complete 2 reports. wrote more than 3000 words.. but i realise whats difficult was not the writing but the completing. writing came at ease and sentences after sentences were just formed continuously.. but when everythg was about to be done, it was never completed. is it due to the habit after 6 years.. of finishing assignments only on the due date.. successfully smoking thru my way each time even though i handed in past the supposed due time. it is a habit that no matter how much i try to analyse my ABC and try to modify the behaviour.. i still see no clue about when i will finally change. long before today, i kept telling myself that i have to start it early. but when laptop fails, it felt as if i could no longer function. i felt so dependent on it and yearn to use it every moment.. but the 2 days have caused a change in me. i had such bad shoulder and neck pain that i dread even the thought of switching it on.

i need a little more time to spare.. so that i can hold on to dear dear and not say a single thing as the clock ticks.. spend some time chit chatting with a fren i miss.. be there for a fren who's feeling down.. lie on the bed and let my thoughts run wild.. smell the flowers out there.. ting hai lang de sheng ying.. i just wanna take it at a slower pace so that i can pay attention to my environment..

somehow i realise these days as i present.. i seem to speak with much zest.. but in my mind, its all in a mess! i still couldnt suppress the anxiety and how nervous i felt each time.. things that never did happen in ny and sa days.. what is happening to me.. i lost all the feelings of satisfaction and enjoyment i used to have about presentations, even though i receive positive comments that i presented well and its repeatedly reinforced.. i speak in such loud and fast pace that is so foreign to me.. nothing seemed to be going right in the presentations im doing all these while!!!

give me back my life..

each time i am reminded of the fun times, i yearn to relive those days. i miss ny days.. miss singing and screaming those national day songs.. miss running ard quadrangle forming long human chains with the other trackers.. vivid images are always formed in my mind.. but will they just remain onli in my memories? even working on a project with an ex-tchs guy was such enjoyment.. cos it felt like i was brought back to ny days.. the quality of work produced is of a respectable standard! after knowing that hes a tchs hurdler.. i wanted to just chat a little more with him.. but things all stopped at our entrepreneurship project.. how often is it that i get to chat with a fellow ny girl and relive those days.. and each time i do.. i end up sleeping at 5am when i have BSM at 8am..

i miss wearing sa uniform.. (sorry havent send u the pics) i miss slacking ard with the HCL gang and laughing at the silliest things.. i kinda suppress some memories now.. perhaps cos im petty.. i miss walking down the benches in cafe and saying hi to every other person i meet! people get so busy they dont even catch up with their schoolmates anymore!

i know what i miss is actually the sense of belonging.. the feeling of being with my big family in school everyday..

and i miss endless chatting with a friend! having the luxury of time.. am i really that busy???

looking forward to thur's sa track meet up.. its always the snrs organising the meet up.. but i'm always glad the msg always come from that one person.. i wonder how i would react to him on thurs.. its always a strange feeling having fa hua chi for a year over my eye candy and theres no results eventually.. and that is essentially why they are called eyecandies.. its so magical that they are the only ones who can cause me to turn my back around to look at them even though they have already walked away..

i felt maybe i shld be like nu ren.. showing her true feelings to her bf even if it is about another guy.. i always suppress those feelings because i cant face the reaction i get from dear.. but it doesnt seem like a gd way out.. anyway girl, as i read ur blog i really wanted to be there for u.. but i didnt know how to approach u.. i didnt wanna disappoint u for not being able to fork out the time if u ever need me to hear u out on the phone.. theres really too much commitments from school thats not within my control.. i always rmb how u take care of me in the past like a big sis to me.. how your laughter is so infectious that it cheers up everyone ard u.. days with u ard were filled with fun and joy! sometimes i really wish we just stay next door!

and i suddenly recall ernie doing the book, booklet thing to kacua.. gaigai i miss u!!





and i just want a thing that can relief that irritating shoulder pain in me..

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:52:00 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007

Why should the wedding ring be worn on the fourth finger?
There is a beautiful and convincing explanation .....

Thumb represents your Parents
Second (Index) finger represents your Siblings
Middle finger represents your-Self
Fourth (Ring) finger represents your Life Partner
& the Last (Little) finger represents your children

Firstly, open your palms (face to face), bend the middle fingers and hold them together - back to back. Secondly, open and hold the remaining three fingers and the thumb - tip to tip
(As shown in the figure):











Now, try to separate your thumbs (representing the parents)..., they will open, because your parents are not destined to live with you lifelong, and have to leave you sooner or later.
Please join your thumbs as before and separate your Index fingers (representing siblings)...., they will also open, because your brothers and sisters will have their own families and will have to lead their own separate lives.

Now join the Index fingers and separate your Little fingers (representing your children)...., they will open too, because the children also will get married and settle down on their own some day.

Finally, join your Little fingers, and try to separate your Ring fingers (representing your spouse).

You will be surprised to see that you just CANNOT....., because Husband & Wife have to remain together all their lives - through thick and thin!!


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super nice right!!! haha. thats a mail from pork.. inspired after reading gaigai's entries abt motherhood and social clock.. i bet HB will give a clear explanation abt the anatomical structures of the fingers to explain this phenomenon.. but well.. i shant be bothered haha. its just so sweet..


had a great time with darren last night.. he's like chatting endlessly.. dear u faster get well and we go play with the brothers k!! kieren misses having u carry him..


love you dear!

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:11:00 PM

if money can drop from the sky, I WANT A SEWING MACHINE!!!!!!

if only i am married by now and have a house of my own with my own sewing machine!!!!

pissed.

hope dear dear recovers from his cough ASAP!!!!!!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:40:00 AM

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Carnival cum Blood Drive
4-5 Aug, 11am-5pm
Jurong East Sports Complex

i'll be there.. and i do hope people will go!!!!! though its far from the MRT.. but i guess blood bank will do some great advertisements ba..

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:30:00 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007

doing direct selling of my collections now.. b4 my blogshop is done up.. so anyone got clothes to pass to me to sell can start bringing to me.. but i need to maintain a certain standard for my products so please dont bring in stuff in bad condition.. hee. and i will tap for my effort in transporting the goods, advertising for them, looking for buyers, and packaging them? haha i will rmb to bring small plastic bags out!! b4 i get my own bags lol

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:50:00 AM

Sunday, July 15, 2007

thanks so much nai niang and gaigai for the support!!! *touched* hee. love u girls so much! at least i have more confidence that pple dont laugh at my dreams hee!

thanks to brother, val, zq, hy, yun who helped in one way or another! building up my confidence =)

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:04:00 PM

Saturday, July 14, 2007

i dont want dear dear to be left alone, but i'll get busy in the coming weeks

research.. reports.. prac tests..

and now im taking steps to get the blogshops set up..

finally figured out how to use the template and made some changes.. though still got some problems i cant solve..

hope to maximise the time i have tmr!

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:00:00 AM

Friday, July 13, 2007

alright gaigai i shall blog!

last week was like the parting season.. pple going to airport n pple flying overseas to study.. hope suying is doing fine! it seems like the 7 of us onli gathered for prata and all split up after that.. but well.. has been a long time since me n nai niang stayed over and talked =)

i need to start on my assignments and reports!! NEC coming over to replace my LCD on tues.. they got like AMAZINGLY WONDERFUL customer service that im truly impressed!!! and i gotta faster load my photos and start my blogshop arghx.. need money to come in =(

anyway.. gaigai i need to meet u soon.. and i need to pop by jess house soon.. sooooooo many thgs to do.. i probably need to be studying from tmr morning..

with my left knee bandaged again.. luckily bro agreed to swap cars..

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:38:00 PM

Friday, July 06, 2007

super happy tonight! finally found the answer after 4 years!! its like removing a huge stone that has been at the bottom of my heart.. haha!

its a hard thing to explain to dear.. but ya.. to zq n sarah.. i guess we'll become like u guys one day~ haha

please tag if u all read my blog so that I KNOW.. haha

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:41:00 PM

Tuesday, July 03, 2007

Pre-sale of my clothes.. meant for my close frens.. so it is intended to have no pictures.. either u know my cupboard well enuff.. or you can contact me directly! i can bring the clothes out for u to see if u are interested. you dont have to be as thin as me to fit into some of them! this price will be the lowest i am ever gonna sell them.. which means price will increase when theres pics!

Tops
# White/Cream Pepper Plus Blouse with some lace details. S [S$12]
# Orange/Red Space Halter Blouse. With buttons, collar & slight ruffles. S [S$5]
# Pale Green Gio Basic Short Sleeve. size M [S$5]
# Orange Osmose V-neck. Free size. [S$5]
# White/Cream Osmose Sleeveless Blouse with lace details. little ticklish[S$5]
# White Adidas Sleeveless. with stripes. same as Alf's team jersey. M [S$10]
# Green Stripe Halter-neck [S$5]
# Grey/Silver Esprit Halter-neck [S$5]
# Bright Yellow Gio Sleeveless. Little loose. [S$5]
# Black Esprit Tube size S [S$3]
# Hot pink Gio Spag Top. size S. shorter version. [S$5]
# Purple cap sleeve slightly off shoulder top with print of a girl. [$8]
# Rainbow Esprit Thick Stripe Halter-neck. M [S$20]
# White Fashion Lab Halter-neck Doll Top with some lace details. flare cut S [S$18]
# Lime Green By Ice Tube with Lacey details at the bottom. S [S$15]

Bottoms
# Blue Faded Esprit Pants. size 32. my maid ironed all my creases [S$15]
# Blue Esprit Knee-length Skirt. quite thick material with very flare cut. [S$28]
# White Esprit EDC Skirt with lace details at the end. flare knee-length. 32. [S$15]
# Light Brown Esprit Skirt. Suitable for formal wear. Starts at waist [SS12]
# Black By Ice Long Skirt. Till the ankle, with no details. [S$12]
# White Adidas 3 quarters with some floral details. little big. [S$18]
# Denim Shorts by Bodynits. -short- goes well with bikini [$10]
# Denim Skirt with pink Cheong Sam kinda cloth at the end. [S$12]
# Orange Fox Cotton Skirt. Flare style. Half thigh. Wont ZG tho [S$5]
# Dark Khaki Gio Carpi. size 24. [S$12]
# Gio Jeans. size 24. bearly covers ankle. [S$10]
# Grey Fila Track Pants. [S$30]

Dresses
# White Tube Dress with Floral Prints. The one i wore on my last bdae [S$20]

Jacket/Cardigan
# Blue Esprit Jacket. Slightly thicker than normal. Little small for me [S$22]
# White Esprit Cardigan. 3/4 sleeve. Cotton material with slight ruffles [S$18]


With purchase of $30 and above, you may get a bag of my choice.. If i manage to find one that suits you. Gave away a duffle bag le.. so dont expect ur gift to be as good as that haha. I'm building up on funds to start a brand of my own. To those who appreciates the quality of my clothes.. will appreciate if u give me your support!! brother knows my clothes dont look old anyway and with good matching skills, people will still comment that u look good! and anyway it doesnt help trying to bargain with me to lower the price of my Esprit clothings.. go for the $5 ones instead!


Reason for selling is not that there is anythg wrong with the clothes or that it is old and out of fashion. It's just that i need to clear my cupboard to accomodate for some new clothes i bought from HK. Brother knows! Some of those on sale are really pretty but i wear like once a year? which is really a waste. dress is really pretty! but i've already worn for all occasions.. CNY, bdae, parties n all.. but i guess maybe i wore it onli 3 times? its kinda funny wearing the same dress all the time when i got at least 10 other dresses.. i love dresses but i seldom get to wear them!

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:40:00 PM

if u are a cheapskate.. please at least show respect to others. who on earth will set up a company, take loads of effort to design, manufacture and sell CHEAP clothes..

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:34:00 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007

blogging for a special fren who is always there for me.. even when everythg fails

i identify that i am someone who's off the mainstream. it is not the 1st time that something like this occur.. when something i do is out of the norm.. and everyone is pointing their fingers at me.. but i dont care.. simply because i would be too tired and too busy if i were to live for so many pple. life is short. cherish the days u have. u dont have much time to please everyone, to wait for everyone. sometimes i just wanna do sth that i know will make my life worth living.. even if everyone is against it.. it doesnt mean that i am doing something wrong.. it is just not the norm.. and i dont care if pple pose their values on me and outcast me.. for it is something only the shallow will do.

i may not care what others think of me.. hence i was too tired to explain why i moved out. pple can think its because my dad has the money to pay for me.. and i am too pampered to live in a hostel.. hence i moved to a hotel. i didnt care.. cos i was too upset for not being able to enjoy the shopping and the food in hk during my 1st day. i was so upset and lonely. i almost cried but i couldnt. i couldnt even call back to tell dear about how upset i was for not shopping and not eating nice food.. and i could not even imagine how i am going to survive my next 6 days in hk.

on the 2nd day when i met jies, it felt like they were my rescuer. they brought me to shop to eat.. everything there is to enjoy in hk. i wanted to stay with them because we could enjoy whole day long.. like it was intended to be. i was supposed to go to hk with them for a 3D2N trip to mai dong xi chi dong xi.. but i wanted to attend APOTC since im already going to hk.. so priority was shopping rather than the congress..

when sis went back to hostel with me.. they were in a shock at the condition i was living in and yet not want to move out. to er jie, it was a building that could never pass the safety standards. she is trained in property management.. and she took the elective on some fire safety things.. so anyway she called my dad to request for me to extend my stay in the hotel.. while i was deciding if i should move out because i did not want to pangseh my friends.. da jie insisted that safety was more important than how my friends would view me. and at all cost they will never let me stay in the hostel again..

so yes the question about why the hostel is dangerous. 1 there is no proper evacuation route for u to run out of the building in case of fire/emergency. 2 there is no space in the corridor to allow all occupants to run out of their individual rooms. 3 the wiring etc inside the room is so old, it may trip anytime. 4 there is no sprinklers or safety measures taken. those were just a few pointers i bearly managed to get from big sis cos i guess she thinks that we, having studied SOOOO much more than she does, would have some common sense and general knowledge to know why the hostel is a fire hazard. it is such a shame to probe further..

i was truly appreciative of what the organisers did for the group. it was a big group to manage, and worse since some of them are not even in school. it wasnt easy liasing with everyone. and i was guessing they didnt really know hk very well too. they spend great efforts trying to source out cheaper accomodation for us.. yet some did not appreciate and complain abt rooms being small. i know it might not be the best deals.. but as i've mentioned, some pple see the cost.. rather than compare the worth.. so to accomodate for the big group, lower cost may be more important than worth. and i was just guessing they were too busy they did not ask around for people who know hk well and for recommendations. sadly mum told me that it was featured in channel U that a group of students went to hk and stayed in hostel.. and got cheated.. so i was wondering if we did too.. but anyway since it was the best hostel ard.. hopefully not..

i didnt complain a thing until i found a place to stay. i wanted to show that i appreciated their effort cos i know some pple wont.. hence i went to get some postcards that depicts real nice photos of HK. they were so tired that everyone of them was sleeping on the plane.. so i thought it would be a nice surprise to leave the postcards for them at their seats so that when they wake up they'll be able to see them. and little did i know, perhaps the stewardess threw their postcards away..

NOT TARGETING ON ANYONE.. i just hate it when pple are a little smart yet they try to act smart when they are not exactly very smart.. i do respect those who are of substance and provide advice to me. but i simply get really pissed with pple whom i dont view as smarter than me trying to give me advices and making me seem stupid.. worse still insist that i do things their way.. showing no respect to me! guess i have really similar personality as dear.. u treat me nicely i will be doubly nice to u.. u try to boss me around.. i wont do anythg nasty to u out front. but ur life wont be too gd..

girl, im sorry for being bitchy about some pple just now cos i simply cant stand the attitude.. i have nothing against them.. but i need to vent the frustration in me.. i just cant tolerate some pple..

and by the way pple.. please dont go ard saying that i stay in hotel cos my dad pays for it and i just go enjoy gd life.. i shop all i want buying $30 esprit clothes cos my dad gives me loads of money.. for your info.. i've transferred assets to my mum equivalent to the amount i spent in hk.. and i used our own savings to pay for every item i bought for my bf! i hate it as much as dear does when pple say we spend money cos dad has the money. we save money to spend.. and we make money to pay back. if u are not able to do it.. then keep ur mouth shut. dont blame it on u not getting money from ur dad.

its not that i mu zhong wu ren.. its just that i simply cant stand jing di zhi wa or talk but no action. everyone knows how to talk.. but who are the ones who knows what actions to take?

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:17:00 PM

Baby's yawning cos my hp takes SUPER long to snap a photo. Cheeky Boy!! He's only 4 months old. And Dear's real good with him hee!

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:02:00 AM

Trip to HK!

After 2 days of shopping with sis, I spent SGD400 on all the clothes inclusive of my own and those i helped people to buy. Managed to save SGD700.. compared to the prices in SG. shopping queen really went high when every single item is bought with careful evaluation and almost all at a great deal (at least 50% cheaper). my fav esprit 3 quarts selling at SGD30. when in S'pore i have to wait till 30% off before i buy. which turns out to be still double the price here. Esprit jacket that i always try but never buy cos they are SGD129 or more. They are selling at SGD30 here! winter wear selling at estimated SGD200 is also sold at SGD30 here! I chose the most expensive special edition adidas jacket for suz which my 'branded fren' wears.. and it only costs SGD57.60. All items i bought are exactly the same as those i find in S'pore and no compromise on quality!!

for the 2 days i really know whats mai dong xi chi dong xi. we can have membership at our fav cha chan ting le.. i ate abt 3/4 of my meals there per day haha. and i think im going to continue to do so lol. really a huge contrast between the areas u stay. so to those who intend to go hk for a 4D3N mai dong xi chi dong xi, guess i can recommend a good place! i've been to 2 supposedly hot town area in HK.. but one has nice food n great shopping deals.. one has food thats not even hawker centre standard n hardly any place for us(3.5/5 star shopping queens) to shop. its really a huge contrast.. so conclusion.. do lotsa hw before u come!! thanks to jies who asked their collegues and find out abt great places. thanks alot to zq for the super useful brochure. pple ask why do i have to get brochures from u when i have a great lot here. luckily i specially went to get from u.. cos so far all those i see are all in CHINESE but u managed to get the ENGLISH version!! and i understand why u can spend so much on food.. haha! really worth the money manx. tell me to spend $2 a day in S'pore for the next 6months im also willing to save! (dear: dont eat good food once a month i also willing to give up lo u imagine!! and i really walk ard alone with the one map u told me. its so easy to go ard!!)

and to dear dear.. haha u're not here to stop me from shopping!!!! so greatful to u for controlling my expenses in S'pore the last mths!! the only regret was buying the esprit 3 quarts during GSS special sale cos even after the super discounted i get in S'pore, im seeing the exact same piece here at less than half the price!! almost wanted to kill myself manx. i think im not ever gonna buy at GSS le lo.. useless de. i dont shop for 2 yrs come hk buy clothes also worth it lo!!! think when i go back i really will not buy esprit, nike and adidas le. cant believe the great deal im getting here!! so much better than all the effort u take to do online shopping, buy at bugis street, or get substandard cheaper clothes. seriously if im gonna sell all the clothes i buy here at discounted rate on blogshops, i can easily make PROFIT of $500 lo! can make biz trip here to get our stocks next time!!!

really thankful that mum arranged for me and sis to come tog.. hai i guess it really pays to see more and have more experience. i never ever expect the hostel to be so dangerous.. doesnt even take er jie who is a graduate in property management to tell.. da jie can tell me why it is dangerous.. and yet we studied SOOOO much more than da jie academically.. we know nothing. what a shame!

begin to understand that thrifty doesnt equate to cheapest spendings. if i had take my own initiative to plan out everything myself.. i would be topping up another $200 for SQ instead of budget air, 4star hotel instead of dangerous hostel for 6nights stay, airport transfers in the sense of coach + bell service rather than DIY public bus, wireless where i can call dear dear on msn and video call with him. i hate to waste dad's money. at least next time i know how to plan budget travel with dear and make every single cent spent worthwhile!

to those like me who can study yet isnt streetsmart.. to us maybe staying in a very crammed room is of no big deal.. the hostels i used to stay at (during my past overseas budget trips) are well ventilated and spacious enuff for at least 2 pple to RUN across corridors at the same time. i cant imagine how we are going to run out of this room if anythg happens...

reality.. when we book for the hostel, it was 2 to a room. when we arrived, its 4 to a room. 35 per night is cheap. but 4 to a room means 140 per room per night. 4 star hotel is 170 per night.
dad always need to spend alot for me to learn important lessons of life. really sorry dad. but i love u lots!! HK land is definitely expensive!!

dear.. my dream strawberry phone selling at HKD1450. i think ur imported phone must be very cheap. thanks for agreeing to buy me e HUGE diamond ring hee! i bought for u one esprit black jacket.. those blazer look one.. one white nike windbreaker but abit thicker type.. better than ur bro's haha. one blue board shorts.. like the orange nautica one i bought for u.. and a grey berms.. those giordano kind that we see le cant bear to buy.. =) touched enuff to pay for my diamond ring le right.. muahahahaa!

This entry was typed when i was in Hong Kong.. just before my laptop screen spoilt.

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:02:00 AM

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