Born into attitude
Asleep at the wheel
Throw all your bullets in the fire
And run like hell
What is the fever?
What ever happened to sweat?

Tuesday, February 28, 2006

LAUGH AT ME LAUGH ALL U WANT

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:32:00 PM

oh i better not blame others later nai niang come n scold me

maybe i shld be the one leaving my blog n stop all the shit

if mama is ever gonna walk out on me i think im gonna just die n do the whole world a favour

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:29:00 PM

i stoopidly promised the 2 of u i wont turn les

one kindly caused me to nao fan with someone who means to much to me.. u know how much the 7 of them mean to me?

n one kindly left me in deep shit.. n make my frenship with my classmates so tense

like thanks lah guys just get out of my life

fuck off

retribution

jieru wake up

so now i know why u are so nice to me want to help me resolve.. THANKS

i trusted u and believed u love me.. fine.. im stupid

beavan chua get it into ur head there is no way we are ever gonna get back tog im sorry.. u hurt me enuff

(yah i hurt u 1st.. hurhur)

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:11:00 PM

fuck

why now bong is angry with me?!?!!

wth

MAMA JIU WO

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:02:00 PM

the best guy u can find on earth

i will nv imagine that..

but beavan is going to settle everything for me..

i guess thats love.. pls go out n teach everyone abt it!

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:05:00 PM

to shuwen: i got the msg..

to mab: ok it's wilson's fault im sorry then..

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:58:00 PM

zui ba shi ren jia de

bie ren ai zhe me shuo jiu zhe me shuo

im not hurt by the fact that pple are accusing me of thgs i did not do

im hurt by how a fren get hurt by pple close to her cuz of misunderstandings

mama teach me not to bother abt wad pple say.. since its nt true ignore what she says ba

1st time in the entire 18+ yrs of jieru's life.. she decides to not fight for herself animore

say what u all wish say

i dont wish to defend animore

i lost the battle

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:37:00 PM

well if she keeps going on badmouthing abt me beside u i guess there is no way u will still accept me as ur fren..

i regret keeping it from pohsiew and only wanted to pass her the letter tmr

its all too late now

i swear i nv betrayed u and i never scolded mab

u can choose not to believe

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:32:00 PM

at least i dare to admit what i did

at least i accept it when pple scold me for wad i did wrong

i nv did scold pple's fren like how someone scolded n cursed my fren

why do u all keep using ur own views to look at me..

i nv blame anyone.. but i just want to have just 1 person to believe that i am not a heartless bitch n i truly care

bet everyone will call me a bitch a hypocrite n wont believe

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:27:00 PM

maybe we arent considered frens.. since the only time we talked was perhaps when i went to meet ht n u were there or sth?

i nv meant to pick up a fight with u or anythg.. i merely wanted to make thgs clear.. sorry for any misunderstandings

u can think im a bitch for all u want n u are free to say anythg.. i just hope u can be more sensitive towards how ht feel.. maybe im wrong.. maybe u are the best fren she can ever get.. fine i fuck off then

i nv felt u went ard bitching abt n stuff..

believe it or not

i thot u chose someone at the expense of a good guy too.. maybe i was wrong.. point out my mistakes then!

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:51:00 AM

Monday, February 27, 2006

snacking on lemon puff.. loads of them

ocip..

sorry dear yest didnt really talk to u.. haha who ask u cut ur nails at such a zhun time.. hope can talk to u on wed!! ehhh help me do that thg also k? miss the auntie teo days! but yep i hafta say i love ya loads my dearie goldfish~ n i really miss the rest of them too.. lx zw ww yl geri.. those nites we spent tog chatting.. j1 selection camp.. cant wait to see all of u on wed! ehhh n why u nv tag my board when u come.. haha i thot u dont read my blog alr..

n i hope i can spend time with others who are/were close to me too.. shall see

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:29:00 AM

Sunday, February 26, 2006

http://kevan.org/johari?view=jieru

pple pls help me do this too! haha n i shall say i koped from dearie jielin goldfish sis

n i think this wld be a helpful site too..

www.dictionary.com

thanks peeps!

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:29:00 PM

Saturday, February 25, 2006

beyond any norm words man..

****

just feeling damn off now

i just wanna be myself n not pretend to be nice n all the shit anymore

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:22:00 PM

sickening.. shit manx im like geked...

yest typed this quite long quotation.. well its those v long wordy kind..

then this girl came n urgently want the quote for some thgs.. n i think i overwrite the file for the prev quotation.. i dunno wad happened la.. prob is everythg is gone.. haix

n i wanted to retype but boss say he type himself..

ok kinda upset abt how blur i can get.. normally overwrite D.O. or invoice nt so jialat cuz either i printed it out or cfm got another copy.. so just copy n edit abit tts v fast..

now its a whole new long quotation

haix n rmb the long 133 enquiry.. now im sorting the invoice.. 3 invoices.. finished one with 3 items.. working on this with 134 items.. 12 oclock still not done.. n still got the 3rd one dunno how many shit items also..

drawing smiley after finishing 1 page is motivating

i dunno why the same item the supplier type 1 name n the buyer type another name.. so i hafta slowly sort so that the names sounds ok n the quantity n prices are the same

im using more effort to work liao k..

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:01:00 PM

weird items again..

ship's stores..

1. File flat double cut bastard 300mm

2. File half round double cut bastard 300 mm

-.-

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:38:00 AM

CATEGORY OF SERVICE : SUPPLY BOILER TUBES

FOR: MAIN ENGINE HYD JACK/PUMP

1 SCREW NIPPLE COUPLING 3/8" NPT FEMALE

2 G 3/8" MALE THREAD X NPT 3/8" NIPPLE

hahahaa that was the D.O. i just typed.. weird la.. haha.. i mean for one who doesnt know all the technical terms n wad exactly all these are.. since when those items got link to boiler tubes.. n somemore got male n female.. i was just fascinated haha.. the weirdest names i typed in my 1.5mths here

im so going to starve to death 2dae.. daddy nt working so i got no porridge.. was in a rush so mummy kindly prepared bread for me.. nobody rmbed i eat bfast 2dae.. haha

onli 2 slices + jam..

normally i eat 1 bowl porridge @ 7 n 2 slices of bread @ 10 so that i wont go hungry till 12..

i am so going to er si in office loh.........

guai guai do work

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:45:00 AM

finally went for my 1st practical lesson yest! muahahaa.. it was like really gd.. shall talk abt it when i got the time.. haha.. got bell ring at the end of the lesson de.. super cute.. n at the start u can see like 100 of instructors walking out.. super cool.. n they are so well dressed and pro lah!

took bus to work myself.. haha.. was looking out of the window n saw this 2 pri sch girl sitting at the bus stop.. they look like they are going for camp.. pe attire, sandals, sleeping bag.. haha.. n 1 of the girls open her bag.. n there was this quite big piglet inside! haha.. shes like pulling down the bag abit to reveal the head.. super cute.. think she brot it to hug at nite! haha.. i dunno somehow my heart just smile at the scene.. childhood innocence

i think i wont get to rest much this weekend.. haha! eventful sia.. after work going down jurong to see jiejie n darren.. then going town with the bunch of oldies lol.. wonder if they still read my blog.. well.. haha i think it wld be nice to see u pple! quite exciting abt the gathering haha! n i dunno if im still meeting pple after that.. anw sure go home late 2nite de.. n tmr 1st thg in the morn i got driving lesson haha! then confirm going out for the whole day.. n go home like evening time.. nvm la haha i think i will survive better having an eventful weekend rather than a resting weekend

n i think tues n wed next week will be exciting too! haha.. the idea that i will get a treat cuz pple get gd results is cool..

oh on my way to stad i passed serangoon stadium also! loads of memories there.. haha! reminds me of wt too.. n the 1st time i saw him hurdling at srjc during swift meet with my both knees in bandage haha!

pink sequin top makes me happy.. somehow.. haha.. n i got reminded of the tomato dropping just exactly at the sequin part.. n since sequins are waterproof the sause didnt stain my clothes haha~ yeah im excited to see the white jacket, the dark baby blue thing n the skirt! haha..

k better get down to work.. quite alot to do 2dae.. byeeee

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:19:00 AM

Friday, February 24, 2006

(+) and (-) at work

(+) yest boss suddenly called my name.. was so happy! haha i mean he like never call my name one laaa..

(-) but 2dae i think he went back to norm.. calling me everythg else again.. haha.. nvm im working for less than a mth more.. like 3 weeks more? hee

(+) i was useful yest! haha i answered the phone n asked the person thgs n checked the quotation then i pass him the msg..

(-) but i onli did it once! haha.. i forgot today! somehow when pple say ask boss to call them or say that they will call back i will naturally not ask why they look for him.. oh well.. natural instinct haha

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:55:00 PM

i spend the morning booking driving lessons

n the afternoon cancelling them.. haha!

no lah i book ALOT n cancel a few.. so still nt so bad.. haha.. cuz i see non-training days then just keep booking.. then forgot i got other plans like dinner n collect results.. so cancel again haha! cant wait for 15 march! i got ALOT of lessons the following week! book off-peak slots cheaper hehe

oh well.. results out on wed.. haha.. got this sudden excitement.. like wanna call mummy but scared too kua zhang.. ya anw.. 1st bong CALLED me.. haha kinda shocked.. then i was on the phone calling fuji xerox cuz the photocopier die on me.. boss say is i make it burn one haha~ but nvm.. then just as she hang up beavan sms me to tell me this time is cfm liao.. hmm.. so i suspected eug got the info n tell bong n bong tell me.. haha spas.. but it turn out that 1 of the gf inform 1 of the guys in tekong.. imagine the msg going from the news n radio to the gf in mainland to bf in tekong to platoon mates.. then come back s'pore to another gf.. and us sua ku stuck in office.. haha nvm im fascinated.. so i sent the msg back to tekong to inform more pple~

slacking now cuz the guy repairing the photocopier i cannot move out of my desk haha.. so cant print invoice/do blahx.. (excuses) anw the photocopier was working normally alr b4 he came.. then boss say just complain paper always jam.. haha.. i mean shun bian..

ok i shall blog stuff abt my life these days while he blocks my way..

hmm daddy just ended his mc 3 days ago.. he can eat out alr.. no oil no chilli blahx.. but he was so happy when we went to macpherson to eat that he ate quite alot! hmm at least hes much better.. i got my share of rashes n sickness.. ya my sickness musical chair.. then korkor also dunno wads his prob passing out blood.. haix he doesnt tell me animore so ya i hope hes fine.. really nv ending.. yest mummy went to the doc n found out she got diabetes.. hope after this time everythg will come to an end.. everyone got their share.. one cycle is enuff..

well tho mummy kinda expected it cuz its hereditary.. but i can tell shes sad.. then she keeps going on with the idea of having to amputate limbs.. haix.. but the fact she had so many prob all over her body these yrs is kinda affecting her.. well the sianness to discover a new prob AGAIN.. after u had like 4 ops?

well sickness musical chair came from one kind soul when i told him my illness.. cuz i said 1st i had sore throat n fever.. then cough.. then blocked nose.. symptoms keep changing.. so ya.. the name came abt.. hmm but maybe what my orthodontist said was right.. (haha i went doc twice both of them said allergic which is like.. erm allergic to what laa) he said maybe it was a mild viral infection.. (say maybe weak dengue xia si wo) wont make me veri sick n have fever n all.. so it appears as rashes.. haha.. n the moment i had my fever i realise my rashes recovered! so maybe he was right! means now the thing got stronger n make me sick liao la! haha.. n maybe cuz i've been living with it for 1 mth now im not veri sick.. just cannot recover! arghx.. haha i think the new set of medicine also wont work loh.. siaoness

hmm then i got this horrible outbreak on my forehead.. super irritating.. nv recover even after i kena... so i doubt it's cuz of that.. tues nite my right eye was red (only that few hrs).. wed morning i woke up with my eyes completely covered with the "eye-dirt"(only 1 day).. sometimes got weird feeling in the eye too.. haha i think maybe this thing in me is weirdly li hai n affecting many places.. mummy say its heaty but i dont even feel heaty at all lah.. i mean this kinda thg u know de mah.. weird me

anw.. im going sinseh this weekend cuz my back n shoulder is really killing me.. haven decide which one to go haha.. every afternoon my shoulders will hurt ultra badly.. yest was tennis ball massaging then my dad wanted me to slp so he kinda helped me massage my back (shoulder was beyond hope).. the entire region down my spine.. every single spot he press hurt! haha.. its the muscle.. nv try pressing the spine tho.. but ya i think my condition is quite bad also.. heng korkor let me kope his cushion at least my lower back is supported at work... but shoulders really beyond ache liao.. i literally spread deepheat on it and attempt to rub all in.. n still no effect at all lidat..

i guess thats abt all for my life these days haha.. been guai guai going home.. n going for my 1st practical lesson 2dae! hehe.. book the 8.50 slot so will end 10.30.. sianed.. hope i dont be too kuku haha!

can see the botaks in 5 days time

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:31:00 PM

Thursday, February 23, 2006

wah i realise my booking records for driving is all filled with cancelled sessions haha!

i've been booking n cancelling cuz i always cannot find a day free to go.. i haven attended a single lesson.. haha

i really dunno when to book my lessons liao loh.. haha.. anytime also nt free one

shall keep it late march then.. sian i want drive

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:43:00 PM

why do i have sore throat every morn (and onli in the morn)?
mummy: cuz u talk so much on the phone everynite

how to cure my sore throat?
mummy: dont talk so much la

hmmm.. but when i got no sore throat at nite i cannot help but talk alot mahh =x haha then she keeps wanting me to hang up cuz it leads to my sore throat.. hmmmmmm

oh well haha.. now i have suspected-to-be-stronger antibiotics.. but the gd thing abt it is that it doesnt make me as weak as the weaker antibiotics do.. haha.. no wonder no need mc..

but mummy still force me to go home str after work every nite cuz im sick.. so yep its not that i dowan arrange dinner la.. mon n tues not free then wed onwards grounded.. paiseh la

but theres one thing she confirm let me go out...





to learn driving..

oh well.. mum...

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:29:00 AM

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

mum who insisit her way
disapproving tone while she questions abt daughter's bf
daughter doesnt even wan to say a single thing to her
and doesnt want to even stay at home to face her
seems like she doesnt have a daughter

smart mum
welcomes son's gf
son talks to her
and stays at home for dinner
seems like she has an additional daughter

inspiration: the irony of mums..
1. she complains that pple always say after daughter gets married its like jia4 chu1 qu4 bie2 ren2 de.. budden in her case her son is as though jia4 chu1 qu4 already.. always spend time at gf's hse and hardly spend time at home (she will nv in her life reflect on herself.. always blame the son)
2. mum who doesnt like her future daughter-in-law.. so son doesnt really bring gf home and so he spends little time at home too (then mum complain abt the son.. forgetting the fact that it all arises cuz she doesnt like his girl..)
3. mum who is very nice to daughter's bf so he always come over n hang ard in their hse.. go out for dinner tog n all (so other mum will say.. ya lah pple's mum always better de.. n they nv bother to find out why.. blame the child for not thinking the mum is good when she doesnt even bother understanding what the child wants)

u see.. mum's attitude determines whether the son/daughter wants to go home.. n bf/gf's mum attitude determines whether the couple chose to spend time at whose house

well in all the scenerios son & daughter interchangable.. haha.. i think it applies to both but ya i dowan to complicate matters..

i dunno i just somehow thought of it in the morn.. was smsing da jie since recently we keep complaining to each other how miserable our lives are cuz of mum who doesnt understand n sibling who is as gd as non-existent.. kinda farni when she said she also kena all that i went thru when she was young.. oh well maybe until i get married then mum will let me off haha.. n its kinda farni talking abt going her hse to hide from mummy haha!

well its veri sian when u are so bored trying to con urself into enjoying ur work.. hardly any entertainment on nights or weekends.. and ur mum is always either cold war, irritated, or flare up at u.. while dad will just cool her down.. n bro will just walk in n out of ur sight in silence..

life is kinda miserable when u dont get family support..

useless one loh go n watch i not stupid 2 still nv learn anythg from the film.. zzzZZZ.. as jiejie said.. they never listen.. never understand.. no pt talking to them la.. they will NEVER get it..

and i keep getting scolded cuz i dont recover from my sickness.. oh please u think i wanna be sick issit.. u think i dowan to have plenty of rest everyday (yes u argue i can slp early.. no it doesnt work for me.. i need to wake up late.. its MEEEE.. and furthermore the onli time i can talk to someone WHO WILL LISTEN TO ME is late at nite!! veri want to sleep early get well but live in misery) i need to work.. n i need to go out n relax cuz of work.. if u really want me to work n slp whole day i think MAYBE i will recover from my cough.. BUT i will either 1. turn crazy or 2. throw temper or tantrum or whatever shit everyday

if onli i can live a life of my own n not try to accomodate all the pple ard me.. its like mad dog living with insane tiger.. ok this has no link to anyone in person haha

bahx.. wanna see doctor also have to think so long decide a day.. took 3 day mc last week alr abit paiseh to take mc again.. BUT im still sick mah wad can i do.. wait till friday i scared i die.. either die of sadness over theres nth i can eat or die of fear of losing weight cuz i need to watch my diet.. n can pple stop thinking i take mc cuz i dowan to work.. oh please like i dowan to get well lidat.. i know i v lazy dowan to work.. but i must be veri sick to want to see doc again after finally finishing the entire bottle of cough syrup thats like super disgusting and the entire course of antibiotics that make me feel super weak..

and i cant take the "for whatever nose" medicine cuz it cause drowsiness.. forget if its running nose or blocked nose also can take.. but tts the onli thing i know that work for prob with the nose.. oh well..

commitments:
thurs- help out with weights training
sat- meet up with long lost pals

reasons for seeing doc:
1st time i finish all the medicine n after so many days my condition is still quite bad other than no fever.
i wanna recover so that i wont have to worry that i will get pneumonia again..
n most importantly i can eat! haha.. deprived of 1 week of norm diet its killing me..

hmm its hard to decide when to see doc haha!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:47:00 AM

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

rich pple..

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/060221/5/singapore194164.html

hmm not bad lah at least it is an interesting article.. haha for a bored me

girls shld be given off every mth.............

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:23:00 PM

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/060220/5/singapore194089.html
about the RENU solution..

somehow after editting the entry 3 times i decide to just leave the news article haha.. bet nobody read what i wrote just now

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:58:00 PM

okie i shall post big big on my blog in return..

SORRY ERNIE

ehhh dont angry liao la.. the most i treat u to marche again k? paiseh ar i din know u all went thru SOOO MUCHHH to get me those clothes.. *gan dong* i was just confused abt how much u bot back for me la.. sometimes it sounds soooo much then u tell me its like 2 or 3 pieces?

nvm i will try to find a time to meet u to get them! paiseh ar busy these few days

dont angry le k...........

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:49:00 PM

today is a happy day! apart from the fact that i woke up with a bad throat.. oh well i dunno why my sore throat is getting worse.. theres alot of phlegm inside but my cough is those dry cough kind.. my nose is filled with thick phlegm.. somehow it is NOT mucus loh.. its like different.. so the whole morn i just bend down at the sink n try to blow out THICK phlegm.. super weird.. but i guess thats the onli way to get rid of them.. haha.. n im speaking with blocked nose again sianed~ (sian cuz my nose isnt blocked at all haha!) its a weird illness..

lalaala.. 2dae no more crammed lorry cuz the uncle was sitting behind.. and the new uncle driving is kinda better~ lol.. not so roller coaster alr.. so yep i came to office quite happy.. i think the thing that saved me from yun che is daddy's bird's nest! haha.. i mean me and mummy helping him to eat~ oh well

was kinda late getting out of the hse 2dae.. haha.. and the reason is cuz i was tying my hair.. n guess what? i left hse with my hair uncombed and all let down! haha.. in a rush mah.. din even have time to comb.. so ya.. i brot comb, rubber band, clip n HAIR SPRAY!! haha if later i got the time i shall slowly tie.. i dunno i just wanna tie the scorpion thing and its too late to tie a nice one.. im late just trying out if my hair is long enuff for that.. haha.. weird me

who cares.. as long as im happy! haha.. im like quite happy when i realise i can tie a proper one~ thot my hair was too layered..

well u know too long nv doll up alr life is boring.. haha.. whenever i dont pay attn to my dressing n take train after work.. i just feel kinda miserable.. haha.. n i think i saw pretty mon yest.. couldnt see clearly.. but anw the girl is pretty.. n she knows im looking at her! haha.. anw i think i shld just spend a little more effort to dress up a little tho theres nobody here who will see.. blehx

but i realise i got limited thgs to wear if i wanna keep myself warm n cover up till my neck~ oh well..

n maybe i can wear skirt alr.. hehe.. since no more crammed lorry!!

oh and daddy n mummy went to watch movie yest! muahahaa.. n wads best korkor went also cuz i think hes too bored.. haha the onli time the family can watch a movie tog is watch jack neo's movie.. cuz daddy cant understand chinese film n mummy cant understand eng film.. oh well.. haha not bad i come home recommend onli they really go n watch.. but im jealous.. its been ages since the family went out to watch movie.. like since i was in pri sch?

well jiejie's bf's family go to movie like a monthly affair.. every single one in the family.. n now jiejie goes with her bf.. n the family! haha.. nvm i still think its nice~!

ok i think boss come liao

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:35:00 AM

Monday, February 20, 2006

jieru is hungry

been doing the same thgs for the past few working days.. 4 pcs of steam bread from auntie.. (everyone else buy 2 slices) well butter onli is really horrible so i went back to my kaya diet.. 3 pcs in the morn.. n 1 pcs in the afternoon..

but now im still hungry.. anw i guai guai ate the big bowl "white fish" yu pian mi fen.. miss the fried fish.... anw i finish the 4th bread le.. no food le.. im still hungry....

say no to chocolates!! arghx

i feel so kelian i want FOOOOOD

haha i think im going back tpy koufu for the la mian later! hehe.. i mean since im going tpy.. and im going to buy the bag! shiok.. haha.. n i will go home hearing the same thing

"so many bags alr still keep buying bags"

somehow they are nv enuff..

jieru has so many diff needs n shes nv contented

fooooooddddd

but dont worry she will take care of herself and be a happy girl still.. hehe..

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:04:00 PM

jieru is a lazy girl who doesnt do her work n go ard be busybody..

well.. the driver is staring out into space.. just aimlessly walking in and out of the workshop.. hmm.. cuz theres a new driver now.. so now he doesnt drive ard.. he just do whatever thgs there is in the workshop..

he just came to chat with me just now.. showing me that now he doesnt have a single key to any of the doors or locks here.. i guess it means alot to him.. well at least i see it as like a symbol of belonging to this company.. then he went on saying he doesnt usually work for long and all.. like bosses dont really want him.. abt him being uneducated n belonging to some "lower rank worker".. saying the new driver is different.. he is perm staff who gets more than a thousand a month.. even the paper for him to keep track of his working hrs n all is diff..

dunno much abt all the adult stuff.. but i kinda saw the sadness in him.. lucky for him he is not really in need of the money to support his family.. but its the feeling i guess.. like feeling useless and unwanted.. n now he doesnt drive the lorry ard.. hes saying hes like me if the driver works OT then he hafta take bus himself.. hmm.. just too much i dunno what i wanna say also.. but yep alot is going on inside..

kinda remind me of those incidents.. have a job thats supposedly secure.. work for all ur life.. n one day suddenly this new thing call "retrenchment" comes abt.. n ur life is turned upside down

scary...

importance of talent.. or i shld say skills.. yi ji zhi chang.. i mean afterall it gives u an edge over others..

kinda admire n feel lucky that daddy chose to chuang ye~ oh well..

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:38:00 PM

hoping that it will make my blog less boring haha! i really feel the urge to write in chinese but i dunno how to type those characters here blehx.. nvm.. hope someone appreciates it..

work is damn boring la.. horrible.. all the cheap thrills dont work animore! haha.. finding no sense of satisfaction in completing thgs.. getting v lazy in getting thgs done.. haha monday blues? lol.. i think monday is blogging day cuz i haven been online during the weekends.. lazy to steal cable..

ya im just v sick of work.. i think the idea of wanting to quit is bad.. haha.. i need some postive influence to get me going.. the old idea of trying to con myself that ns is worse than what im going thru here no longer works.. so ya someone save meee

haha n somehow i think working aimlessly makes me even more reluctant to work.. i mean i am not in great need of this money or this job.. its not like im working to support my family or saving up money for sth..

*wonder why ws n tp keeps popping up on msn*

ya.. like.. this job is just making me kinda stoopid.. n i suspect it may be causing my spine to get more 'crooked'.. haha im just acting stoopid again.. just remembered ya good once said that abt my spine.. kinda miss going back for treatment.. hmm i dunno i think sitting down all day is real bad.. n i think its making me have v bad posture.. n its making me stoopid.. blehx

i wanna see more pple at work leh.. n i really suspect i got claustrophobic.. i feel so trapped in the office n i just feel so sick blehx.. haha.. the actual reason why i think so is cuz of the phobia of taking train and going to crowded places.. lol.. always like get giddy n feel sick... oh well

ya i think my blog sounds more n more stoopid =( haha or issit me getting paranoid.. i dunno.. but i think my work is driving me crazy.. haha.. not that i got alot of work to do.. well the story is just random inspiration n doesnt reflect my present state.. opps sounds so copy brother.. aiya whatever lah i just cannot think properly liao loh.. shit manx..

i realise i dont really chat with pple.. been like more than a week since i really talked to pork.. i think the idea of not coming online on weekend is stoopid but too bad.. not much update on the girls blogs also.. haha i mean at least i can expect to see sth on monday on the guys'.. haix.. blogging is like 1 of the ways i can get to know whats going on in ur lives laaaa.. n gaigai also dont share her life animore.. haha i always get to talk to huiyu but i think we really got nth to say other than all the boliao thgs at work.. jess n jun is like wait for blue moon liao loh~

n i miss talking to nai niang n mother.. all the random chats.. haha.. i know nai niang is super bored at work also but paiseh lah i dont have that many sms to keep smsing u.. sorry that i din reply u that day.. can u like stop talking to me abt that.. haha..

past somerset yest n reminded me of the ballet class again.. haha.. theres one at specialist centre.. i think i forget to tell u abt it.. cuz i thot it will be the most not-budget one since its at orchard.. haha.. beginners class was on tues evening or sth..

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:30:00 AM

sometimes when u lose the strength to go on.. u just need someone to be there to remind u how to go on..

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:50:00 AM

i thot its kinda obvious i read blogs..

went orchard yest.. haha.. i think its been ages since i've been there.. n im shocked at how empty orchard is on a sunday afternoon! haha.. whole stretch of orchard is like not many teenagers.. n cine is kinda empty too.. even heeren is.. think orchard is mostly maids ard.. n they dont come n flood the malls

took some time shopping alone.. not bad i finally bought sth! haha.. n i tried the super light denim skirt with like 'loose-ends' kind.. really like it! but somehow they are always so short.. blehx.. legs too long liao loh...

empty cough that doesnt heel that easily.. haha.. makes me wonder if i shld eat like bong.. since it doesnt heal anw! haha.. pple got tekong cough.. i wonder wads ours~

oh and i not stoopid 2.. i shld say its quite gd ba.. it made me laugh at the start.. and made me cry in the end.. hmm the flow of the story isnt exactly fantastic.. but i think some parts were veri nicely done..

laksa soup was farni! well.. some of the 'jokes' were expected, some were badly done.. but hafta say some are gd! n the part when the ah ma come n say the daddy is kinda nice.. i mean the idea of parent teaching the child..

dunno why somehow i always watch the local productions.. haha.. its not like i intentionally go and watch but ya just somehow i never fail to watch them..

n i think the boy grow up alr v gd looking~ haha! he looks just too guai to watch porn n join gang loh

anw thanks for the concern~ im not that hostile.. the incident abt the sms abt lily was like misunderstanding i guess.. tc in there.. if it makes u worse then remove loh..

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:48:00 AM

its only monday morning

1st it was yun che onli.. okie i ren.. now its 2 middle-aged man in the lorry screaming right beside me.. in less than 20mins of travelling.. more than 1001 thgs to comment on.. more than 20 times of knn.. n like super rich vocab lah.. arghx.. why chinese dialect got so much shit de

life is d miserable laaaaaa.. can i just dont come to work since now they have more worker le...

@#$%^&*

head just keeps spinning n their voices are like still haunting meeeeeee

arghx

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:38:00 AM

Friday, February 17, 2006

i am forgetful..

when im hungry..
i think of the chocs in the fridge here
the lemon puff, collon biscuit in the racks
HD choc ice cream in the freezer..

haha shld i be glad that i dont really cough.. but tt doesnt mean i've fully recovered blehx

is the cough syrup making me horribly hungry easily.. haha.. dunno if its a good sign.. i wanna eat but theres so limited thgs for me to eat!

daddy was just saying i look like i put on some weight tt day.. haha.. the end-of-misery that day.. supposedly my cheeks/chin area got meatier~ then so fast few days onli sick alr.. nvm i will grow fat again!! yet to weigh myself though..

n i wanna go shopping!!!!!! haha i NEED clothes.. and i NEED to shop.. haha.. rashes seem much better alr~ hehe.. so its time for me to get out!!

haha too long nv eat medicine i think im getting stronger.. good! hate all the dizziness n nuaness.. last battle tmr! wheee

applying for my PDL tmr~

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:45:00 PM

finally back to work.. shall blog a little.. well i've been sleeping since 6pm on 14 feb.. hmm i dunno when is when n i realise stuff i said when i was sick doesnt make any sense at all

14 feb
well.. i didnt really reply anyone.. after dinner temp was 38.3.. i think it has been a long time since i had such a high fever.. yep.. v-dae wasnt alone cuz i had my fever to accompany me.. n i had a date with the doc.. hes farni.. haha 1st thing he said was.. hi jieru.. been a long time since ive seen u.. or sth lidat la.. haha my memory getting worse after the fever.. but pt being.. erm as though i wanna see him v often! haha..

boss let me off ard 11 cuz i was like dying in the office n he didnt really need me ard.. haha talked to bong on the hp.. i think my bill going to bao again loh.. considering last few days i keep chatting on hp at peak hrs!

afterall v-dae was still... fine? haha =x

15 feb/16 feb
i couldnt figure out when was when.. i just know i kept sleeping.. wake up for meals.. then sit in front of tv with daddy but dozing off v soon.. dunno why i was just sooo tired.. tried to do a bit of thgs but my hands were so weak it was out of my control..

woke up on 16th morn.. super yun.. then like going to blackout kind.. so cldnt go to work again..

so i just spent the 2 days slping n slping.. hmm

17 feb..
thats 2dae rite.. yep.. morn wake up not that weak.. i dont feel v well tho.. but cough syrup left 1 dose and antibiotics till tmr morn.. hmm hope tmr after finishing all the medication i wldnt be that weak.. blehx.. hafta do last min cancellation of driving lessons which makes me kancheong.. but heng pple dying to buy those slots haha! cant imagine handling the car with such seh-ness

did i mention i passed my BTT? haha.. completed in 10 mins.. but im not the 1st to complete.. time given was 50min..

thats abt all.. haha i wonder if pple are reading this blog..

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:25:00 AM

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

oh happy valentine's day.. woke up with 2 smses from hy and pl.. and i am not going to send smses out cuz my bill is super high.. haha.. but i confirm got think of u pple k~

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:35:00 AM

Monday, February 13, 2006

sms or missed call doesnt mean everythg

find a new world for urself.. one that is filled with more pple.. fill it with hope and love.. just believe in it.. the day will come

she means the world to you.. but she isnt the world..

even if the world changes.. be strong.. it isnt the end of the world

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:50:00 AM

kinda lost touch with blogging lalaa..

went to jialaoshi's hse yest.. was nice seeing the few of u.. sth i just dont understand.. why tt time ms tan's bdae we went restaurant all wear board shorts then yest almost all wearing pants or jeans.. haha oh well.. anw i think jialaoshi is really so happy when she saw all of us.. and really lah we just go there once a yr haha.. miss those jumps trng..

been busy with thgs lately so didnt have time to carry out my plans.. cldnt relive those ny memories on v-dae.. nobody prepared anythg yest anw..

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labour intensive, low level of techonology..

hmm like o lvl human geog...

haha dunno somehow i just had that feeling last nite.. its 2006, singapore.. where got such thgs one?!?! sth that can be done using a simple machine within 5 seconds took more that 15 mins.. with bad alignment n all..

does that make it more meaningful? haha

but it feels kinda farni when the machine is just behind me but i cannot use it.........

nvm i still enjoy doing it hehe~ still proud that it will turn out nice =)

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BASIC THEORY TEST
13 FEB 2006
8.00PM

must prove to the pig whatever nonsense abt sitting there doing loads of practice is stoopid

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:39:00 AM

Saturday, February 11, 2006

歌曲：分手快乐

歌手：梁静茹 专辑：恋爱的力量

我无法帮你预言
委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍
朋友爱的那么苦痛

爱可以不问对
错至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中

泡咖啡让你暖手
想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走
吹吹冷风会清醒的多
你说你不怕分手
只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人
情人节每天都过

分手快乐
祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的

不想过冬
厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳

分手快乐
请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱
像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的

没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容

你自信时候真的美多了

okie suddenly i see alot of meaning to this song.. well in case u cant tell its fen shou kuai le.. u know the song so dont hafta read the lyrics.. i think some parts the chinese is too chim for u anw..

some content kinda apply somewhere.. oh well.. vdae is just ard the corner.. hope everyone will be fine in their own ways..

when its time to let go.. just let go..

move on and u will be happy

who says vdae is nice if u are attached
vdae the last 4 yrs
2002: with wt.. nth at all i think.. but my 1st bouquet of rose still sits on my desk till today
2003: with sh.. still acting like im his mei.. nth fantastic at all.. practical presents haha.. but not worn anw..
2004: unattached but had a great time having steamboat at marina with the singles night out.. whole big bunch of 77 + some OG19
2005: well all my classmates n teammates know..

so i think the best way to celebrate vdae is still singles night out haha.. if u cant find the right guy to spend the day with u~

sunflower blooming! but this time quite pathetic onli 1 or 2.. blehx.. hafta accommodate for other kinda flowers =(

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:43:00 AM

Thursday, February 09, 2006

i dunno to pity the guy doing the delivery or pity myself haha!

well hes saying due to the heavy rain n all the pple in the industrial estates calling mac cuz they have lunch during 12-2.. hes still delivering those b4 me.. n i will hafta wait like 30-40 mins more? haha.. nvm he sounds gd on the phone so i was a nice customer..

n its 2.48 now.. my lunch........

heng i got loads of snacks lying ard manx.. haha.. n tt will ensure i wont be hungry during trng cuz lunch will be here like erm 3 sth?

i think if they get someone to walk over from singpost mac i wld have alr halfway thru digesting my nuggets

i placed my order b4 1.30.. haha~ nvm im in such a good mood i guess

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:46:00 PM

thats the way girl!

haha the jieru i know is back! lalaaala.. finally end of misery last nite~

love makes all thgs possible

haha i just called home to whine a little.. anw im getting on fine with the tricky enquiry.. finally.. so proud of myself to be able to come up with solution quick enuff to save myself.. n lunch is coming! haha i cldnt get out cuz i cant lock the dumb workshop.. think the old old door gets cranky on cold days.. well nvm.. waste my money ordering macs.. it better be nice! haha.. meaty meal 2dae.. just ate 100g of honey baked ham.. n 20 pcs nuggets are on the way~

lalaaala.. getting back the positivity..

n doc says daddy is fine! fever was cuz his body is too weak.. oh well.. nvm now he can bu3 already.. haha.. so he will get well soon i guess~ n selfish me will be happier cuz tt means i got higher chance of going overseas! n i dont hafta stay home n act like i enjoy watching news..

so ya pple.. dont think so much abt fever~ everythg will be fine!

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:39:00 PM

this is not what i want

well i would imagine myself working at some shopping malls.. smiling to customers.. taking out pretty clothes.. or maybe promoting sth.. part time.. working on some days..

its nv my intention to get a job that i can truly LEARN from it.. haix.. all the good intentions of pple.. giving me sth that will expose me to a wider scope of work.. try out new thgs n all.. haix.. tough thgs!!

i nv wanted to go into engineering.. or into trading.. work in dad's company.. or whatsoever..

OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY

does that sound anythg near to office work..

somehow i dont appreciate the opportunity to see how a small company functions.. n i dont see how this job is interesting cuz u get loads of differnet ENQUIRIES everyday.. arghx nooooo

okie now its decision making.. i hafta try to be happy and be more open to new thgs.. LEARN..

sick.. i nv wanted to use THAT MUCH of my brain till it becomes sooooo retarded.. living under stress when in actual fact i shld be enjoying these like 4 mths..

enquiry is like the last thing i wanna do loh.. u ask me wash toilet also better.. haix.. daddy n korkor are super supportive of this idea of me doing enquiry.. arghx.. somehow i dunno i just HATE it so much.. putting loads of stress on my simple slack job..

haix n doing enquiry is SUPPOSEDLY better than working in large company when u keep doing the same old brainless crap every single day..

super taxing laaa.. n its IMPOSSIBLE to finish by morning cuz its like my 1st time handling so big mess of enquiry.. 131 items sorted out almost 1 by 1.. n they dont state thgs clearly i really cant tell what is what.. hafta check with past enquiries n make changes accordingly for almost every item.. know nuts abt all these spares laaaaa.. okie i really hate mess n thgs which are unclear so that make thgs worse.. haix its alr 12.13pm i cant even sort it out properly how to ask pple.. @#$%&*! blehx someone save meeeeeeeee

thanks to blogger.. at least i can whine on my blog.. well at least now i can sms n hope for a reply =)

stress

its raining now... haix if onli someone can send me nice warm ai xin qu can..

sucks..

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:56:00 AM

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

T.I.R.E.D.

a phone call is all i ask for..

just one phone call n the week of pain is all worth it..

everythg will be erased from the memory

everythg will seem fine again

just one phone call

i bet u dunno wad im talking abt.. cuz i also dunno wad im talking abt.. haha random inspiration.. finally finished the enquiry.. not as if its completely done but ive tried to do as much as i can alr.. arghx so many brain cells died cuz of that.. shoulders aching.. old liao laa

im gonna make someone's day 2dae so yesssss 2dae will be a good day! haha.. i hope i can find my way down to AH~

girl, you gotta have attitude
5:10:00 PM

im finally working! shld be happy rite

i've been working for the entire day i need a short break here.. wah really endless thgs to type n do.. spent the whole morn on 1 super long quotation.. scary.. n now doing a 13-page enquiry~ hmm boss is kind enuff to pass me some work b4 i rot here

well just read brother's blog.. i bet bong will be veri jealous of ur snr's gf.. haha.. she better not see this or she will begin her long story abt her vdae gift.. i mean still get flowers on v dae tho bf is stucked in camp is like WOW.. oh well.. dont be sad.. at least u make a couple happy for vdae rite? u will have ur share.. n go on with ur party! i will go! and we will relive those sweet vdaes in ny k! i cant wait for march also! love it! anw tagboard.. i thot mine v easy to tag le haha.. its just the norm tagboard.. erm bong's u must go to the beginning of the box where u type ur msg.. when this "I" cursor appear.. u just click.. then u type n tag! takes abit of skill to be able to tag haha!

wads so great abt march?
i can finally go for ballet lessons with jx!
and i will stop work somewhere mid march
and maybe i can go overseas.. it all depends

n pple will be out of bmt.. while someone will go in soon haha! cant imagine this morn i dreamt that i was going to be enlisted.. i saw pple in bmt.. attending lecture in like long-sleeve collared shirt n i think tie.. so pro for what loh! n best some of them the hair still quite long.. haha! i really got nth to say abt my dream..

k back to work.. page 7 of the enquiry.. jiayou jiayou..

multitask: type enquiry, day dream, listen to mp3, occasion chat with huiyu

going AH after work..

*power ring*

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:33:00 PM

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

greatest nightmare: boss claims
i used to wonder why he hafta claim money from his own company n make us busy.. but i see a purpose to it now.. well he gets a lower salary but claims all his expenses.. more golf sessions, more entertainment, more feast means more invoices.. entertain pple like my dad n my bro.. 'ask korkor not to play golf with him n i got less trouble'.. haha but dont be stoopid.. he will still go play laaa..
somehow i just got sth against the claims.. cant stand the whole big stack of messy invoices.. worse if u cant even find the details or the person just scribbled loads of crap on the receipt.. dunno to be happy or sad that i comes only once a mth.. (haha i realise it sounds like something)

favourite sound: tu-tu-tu-tu-tu-tu-tu
haha this constant retarded sound from the telephone.. means he divert the line to his hp.. means hes gonna be out for some time.. hehe!

favourite work snack: sour fish! chewy and nice.. save me from the aftermath of yun che.. maybe tmr i shall keep eating on the way to work.. hope it doesnt cause me to lose weight haha.. chewy and nice.. if onli the whole pack is all blackcurrant! haha i think i wanna buy the whatever brand de those currant n berry type.. actually sour fish was all yellow n i think all lemon.. then it evolves into yellow n pink ones now.. haha hope it doesnt turn colourful~

how i work: i will work in a whole lot of mess.. fill up the entire table.. one thing stack on another.. dig the pile of crap for maybe a small stationery.. then pack everythg when im done for the day =) anw as long as i complete my work n do it properly can alr mahhh
hahaha.. i strongly believe my boss cant stand such a secretary.. haha.. i dunno somehow i dont see why i shld do one thg n keep one thg.. then keep taking out again.. yest he was chatting with me ask me hows work.. n he was saying best is u get a job that u got interest in then work will be nice.. haha.. i guess he knows im not suited for office girl~

looking forward to: thurs!! cuz hes going for golf session at i think sentosa! means i will be alone for the whole day except maybe 1 or 2 hrs in the morn~

im a slacker slacker slacker! haha

during lunch i was thinking abt sth stoopid.. miss those survey thing.. noe asking u loads of thgs.. haha

then i came up with my version.. i think its nicer than asking those usual thgs

take it as u are a girl.. if u are a guy change accordingly la haha!

school
1. if there is a guy in your class who has a crush on you, who do u want it to be:
2. if there is a guy in your cca who has a crush on you, who do u want it to be:
3. if there is a guy in your school who has a crush on you, who do u want it to be:
4. if u can be attached to one of these guys, who do u want it to be:

ya i am boreddddd.... somehow from one thing.. i thot of another.. n i think n think then i thot of my eye candies in school.. then i thot of this lame thg haha! n i got my answers to these questions~ lalaaala.. bet nobody wld guess it correctly.. cuz nobody will wanna guess =(

the answers could almost form ABC.. dont worry answer from qn 1 doesnt in any way contribute to it.. n that brings me to the idea of the ABCDEF thing~ okok i hope i wont make anyone sad..

thats all for 2dae..

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:26:00 PM

say hello to shui tong!

haha i had dun tang for lunch as adviced by mama.. then bot 1 pack of hot barley back.. wah really v big pack sia.. haha.. so now i feel so shui tong

i miss ny!! n i miss the 7 of u.. haha.. yest kept smsing n talking to nai niang.. talked to brother.. 2dae keep chatting with mama.. really v nice to be chatting with u all again! ok i may sound childish here cuz im still chatting with mama! lol

really miss those days we trained tog manx.. i miss wearing sanse! mama is wearing it now and i am jealous!!! haha.. now we all wanna wear san se alr.. last time was just me n jx in our san se n ba zhang.. or rather kee zhang.. who cares! haha.. most imptly is we trained tog, we hurdled tog, we endure thru those tiring trng, did our 5 hurdle at chi high n trying to beat the timing when actually its all wrong haha! omg i really miss trng.. haix.. i wanna wear san se.. n i wanna wear the 7-of-us jersey cuz alf refused to get one! ahhhhhh i miss those days..

oh the 3 pairs of earrring i bot few weeks ago was yellow, white n blue! sanse! but too bad dont have those thats like all 3 colours! haha.. maybe i can add abit of yellow n top n abit of blue below for my big white stud~ too bad no more nats with ny.. haha rmb putting yellow n blue for the rubber thing on our braces! those crazy times..

n i miss ny.. been such a long time since i was back.. yest just looked thru brother's blog again n saw the pro-entry abt ny cny! it was like our 2nd home then.. n now i feel so xiang jia~

can we meet up during vdae WITHOUT JIAYI?! haha.. shall talk abt it on sunday if most of us can go to jialaoshi's hse.. rmb those years when we give each other presents and super sweet notes on vdae? haha i still like the pack of 8 glow-in-the-dark hearts i got! hope all still ard.. how we glow even at the darkest times.. n how our hearts are always tog as one! lalaaala


kind of sent ernie off just now.. haha.. am i the last one to talk to u b4 u fly? oh well.. u just hafta remind me of the ultra big esprit there.. ahhhh make me super excited abt it.. haha.. hope u bring back some nice stuff manx.. haha.. n i really hope u get the right stuff.. haha! well size doesnt matter cuz too big or too small i also got pple to pass to! haha.. i miss shopping laaaaa.. n i cant go bangkok with both da jie n er jie cuz its either mid feb or mid apr.. why nobody goes late march or early apr.. i wanna go overseas n i wanna shop!!!!

haha i shld try shopping in s'pore 1st.. i got an endless list of thgs to buy laa

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:26:00 PM

someone pls save me.. im like yun1 che1 for 2 days alr.. haix.. whether i eat sth or not i also yun.. how how how..

n mummy dont let me slp on the lorry.. arghx... like roller coaster laaaaaaaa

any idea how to solve the prob..

sometimes i wonder if pple do come here.. oh well

talking to myself....... maybe someone will reply during the weekend.. means i hafta yun few more days arghx

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:40:00 AM

Monday, February 06, 2006

sometimes i dont understand.. while u are screaming into the phone 10m away.. u expect me to hear what the person on the line here is trying to say.. hmm.. i really cannot hear loh~

i onli followed what i was told to do.. what she had been doing all these while.. then u come n tell me i did it wrongly.. blehx

u always mistook what i meant and make me seem stoopid.. blehx..

oh well too bad

looking forward to march =)

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:58:00 PM

well i was just complaining to brother that my work is brainless n boring a moment ago..

then work just kept coming in b4 i can finish what im doing.. coolx..

all thgs happen for a purpose

if i cant even handle all these stress coming from r'ship n family n from within myself.. cant concentrate and do my work well.. how am i going to survive my 3 yr of OT course.. it will be more stressful compared to my job here.. n there is no way i can just slacken or skip class or whatsoever just because im not in the best of mood.. n worse still if i start practising in hosp.. cant like get impatient so easily just because i am not feeling gd..

hmm so i guess now its a challenge to talk to pple nicely.. not vent my frustration in any weird form.. learn to be more patient.. blehx

really wish i have my pillar manx.. to hold it up when my world is abt to collapse.. n to let me lean on when im worn out..

(does that somehow hint that i need a warm big hug and a shoulder to lean on.. hmm.. maybe..)

i have to find a way out.. n be positive abt life again..

love makes all thgs possible..
"hello love pls come n save me"

*~*

CHOCOLATE.. yes that is what im missing out..

choc bar, choc ice cream, choc cookies, hot choc.. i wish i can fly to somewhere now manx hah

i am not going to steal the kitkat white from the fridge.. tho nobody knows n nobody eats

haha anw.. banana nut crunch isnt that bad for the meantime.. heh

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:35:00 PM

yes its stress..

i cant imagine i am facing stress at the moment.. no test.. n work is supposed to be slack.. but yes if u know wads going on in my life (which most do not) i am truly living under stress..

thats causing me all the sickness.. get paranoid.. cant think straight n wad nots..

so can u like kindly solve some problem n relief some of my stress.. blehx.. not anytime soon

i need to lead a stress-free life soon... jiayou jiayou

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:25:00 AM

will anyone just hear my call..

i am really not that strong.. when i lose the will-power.. somehow everythg fails

the heart..

the mind..

the soul..

even the digestive system..

everythg stop functioning properly..

i will just hide in my own world.. all motionless and dark..

while i go twirling all ard.. non-stop..



enough.

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:36:00 AM

Sunday, February 05, 2006

sort of a promise with pq.. we shall exercise this thurs! haha found another slacker who's like me.. eh really lah after so long nv exercise u got no strength at all! u just feel so weak in ur limbs n just so weak overall

haha i can even go out w/o a hp.. cuz basically its like useless.. dont even bother bringing..

thanks to a random sms i realise i have a phone~




@#$%^& after all the sadness n screwy days the 2kg is gone.. *beep*

i knew it.. arghx

brother.. it doesnt help by eating alot.. i think its better if u keep urself happy.. then u wont get upset stomach too.. n u will be eat more n be happier as u eat.. blehx.. nvm.. im sad abt the weight loss AGAIN

too bad i cant take care of myself.. i tried laa.. but due to external factors i somehow lost the ability to..





a simple qn can determine if how strong the person is

"are u really that strong?"

girl, you gotta have attitude
7:40:00 PM

some guys are bastards
some guys are nice
bastards will be sweet till they get wad they want
nice guys will be sweet even if they noe they wont get wad they want

thanks dy! nice chatting with u =)

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:31:00 PM

which is worse..

forgetting how to smile

or forgetting how to cry..




i guess im just too forgetful..

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:38:00 PM

1. When a girl says she's sad, but she isn't crying, it means she's crying in her heart.

2. When she ignores you after you've done something wrong, it's best to give her some time to cool down before touching her heart with an apology.

3. A girl can't find anything to hate about the guy she loves (which is why it is so hard for her to 'get over him' after the relationship's over.)

4. If a girl loves a guy, he will always be on her mind every minute of the day, even though she flirts with other guys.

5. When the guy she likes smiles and stares deep into her eyes, she will melt.

6. A girl likes to hear compliments, but usually is not sure how to react to them.

7. When a particular guy flirts with a girl very often, a girl would start thinking the guy likes her. So if you treat a girl just as a friend, go easy on the smiles and stare ok?

8. If you don't like a girl who likes you, break it to her gently.

9. If a girl starts avoiding you after you reject her, leave her alone for a while. If you still treat her as a friend, talk to her.

10. Girls enjoy talking about what they feel. Music, poetry, drawings and writing are ways of expressing themselves (which explains why most girls like writing journals).

11. Never tell a girl that she is useless in anyway.

12. Being too serious can turn a girl off.

13. When the guy she likes calls her for the first time, the girl may act uninterested during the call. But as soon as the phone is back on the hook, she will whoop with joy and immediately start telephoning her friends to spread the news.

14. A smile means a lot to a girl.

15. If you like a girl, try making friends with her first. Let her get to know you.

16. If a girl says she can't go out with you because she has to study, leave.

17. But if she still calls you or expect a call from you, stay.

18. Don't try to guess a girl's feelings. Ask her.

19. Hearing the words "I love you" is a great reassurance to a girl that she is beautiful.

20. After a girl falls in love with a guy, she'll wonder why she never noticed him before.

21. If you need tips on how to flirt with a girl, read romance stories.

22. When class pictures come out, a girl would first check who is standing next to her crush before actually looking at herself.

23. A girl's ex-crush will always be in her memory, but the guy she loves now stays in her heart.

24. Girls love having fun!

25. A simple 'Hi' can brighten a girl's day.

26. A girl's best friends usually know best what she is feeling and going through.

27. Girls hate it when a guy pays attention to them just to get close to their 'prettier' friend.

28. Love means devotion, caring and happiness to a girl, in that order.

29. Some girls care about looks, some care about brains, but ALL girls want a guy who will love and care for them.

30. Girls want nothing more than to feel loved.

im the most boliao person alr i guess.. wad more to ask if u are feeling out of love n feeling the whole world is turned against you.. you are so lost n u dunno wad to do.. everythg is just not right.. u feel so restless and u have no strength to do anythg.. to even think.. u feel weak in ur limbs, in ur mind.. n in ur heart..

screw off

girl, you gotta have attitude
12:57:00 PM

Friday, February 03, 2006

happy girl

yest boss gave me work to do.. meant for 2dae.. so i slacked yest n conserve the work 2dae.. quite nice planning my time n doing the work this morn.. independent worker hehe

anw i still managed to complete quite soon.. take a quick lunch.. ard 15 min haha.. 1st time so fast.. n i finally get started with my book! haha its supposed to start like 3 days ago.. but nvm.. haha i wrote my stuff down in my notebook n lappy so its still fresh.. 1st page the deco is kinda crap.. but 2nd attempt was soooo gd! so proud of myself haha! i love my rainbow spotlighters!

when u are happy.. everythg just seems so nice!

music fills the room.. while i sit n smile to myself.. swaying to the beat of the song..

gd life

i think wearing pink top with sequins cheer me up! haha.. or maybe its the freedom of wearing jeans.. lalaala.. who cares! n i love my hairband.. hehe.. the small small one.. does its job well~

love taking pics with samsung phone! muahaha trying all sorts of expression n u will know if it looks gd b4 taking them..

today is a good day =)

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:35:00 PM

it puts me in a world of fantasy.. sitting in a posh restaurant.. bright orange lights n dark red roses.. candles.. someone dressed smartly in a suit.. playing violin/saxophone while i enjoy my dinner..

smiling sweetly at the special someone

"thanks for tonite"

jay chou - an jing (saxophone + piano)

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:58:00 AM

Thursday, February 02, 2006

wah imagine losing few frens cuz of a guy.. kinda crazy loh
imagine losing a guy cos of a few friends
which is worse?

my version:
haha frens will forgive me after some time..
when the guy is gone he is gone

girl, you gotta have attitude
2:46:00 PM

i didnt mean to be nasty when i sent that sms..

i NEED to distant from you..

im sorry i couldnt explain to u whats going on..

why i teared on the bus when u did all that.. cuz i hate it.. i need to let go off all these.. but i don wanna hurt someone who is so true to me.. i admit it took me quite awhile to react to the things u did.. i need to realise that it is no longer the way..

well if i have to explain the msg.. u said we shld distant not even contact at all n stuff.. so i thot if u have the intention to salvage then its unfair to just shut u out of my life.. then if u dont have the intention to then fine we just leave each other alone..

i did ask u abt what shes doing in the mag loh.. its not like im that bo chup u or wad..

what has taken over me?

enlightenment? how i choose my life to be?

we are already over so it is natural that we drift apart whatttt

i made a choice.. i chose to walk out of ur life.. u can think im bad im nasty or whatsoever.. i wish i had just ignored u all the way since breakup.. dont even care if u are like damn sad n miserable at stoopid tekong.. dont even bother smsing or talking to u.. dont even wanna see u at all..

maybe wad bong said was true.. u dont appreciate what i did for u..

yes it is over get out of my life if u think im like soooo bad to u.. i got no time to entertain u n i dont have the intention to..

like thanks alot

u started talking abt us on ur blog so i just followed..

u can use the kinda way u looked at me in the past.. u can think im a childish stoopid unreasonable girl who always demand my way.. u can think that there is no way there will be a guy who can control me......

just keep thinking the way u want to..

soon u will be as alienated as u-know-who

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:53:00 AM

haha can i come up with a v-dae wish list?! will anyone bother to fulfill my wishes

somehow when i went to walk ard in ps yest it looks like theres sth abt v dae..

its coming.. seems so many days later.. i think this yr no sch no more preparing of presents for frens..

n i think i still wont have anythg fantastic during the day.. vdae is always boring whether im attached or im not..

too bad

the nicest memories from vdae still comes from the girls! haha.. just love vdae with u gals! shall see if we can meet this yr.. haha.. cuz onli mama will be affected if we meet!




suddenly i wish that i have a bf who stays in m'sia n will bring me in during cny.. muahaha.. but noooo i dowan someone who will dump me at home when im sick

eh b4 ur ns i also v free bring me there leh haha!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:51:00 AM

well i guess thgs are getting better.. how i past those days of cny..

2nd day.. pple came.. screwy again.. well korkor keeps bugging me to play mahjong.. so we started with the lame san jiao again.. then got more kahs alr so we played si jiao.. resulted in me not being able to chat with pple i want to.. i mean all i did was mahjong n mahjong.. nv even get to talk much.. then gotta rush off to temple.. like last min decision n ya i kinda dint handle the situation well.. with jiejie's "i thot" n me cldnt react..

went out at nite w/o an aim in mind.. not knowing where to go.. not knowing who to meet.. i just wanted to get out.. cuz i was tired.. ironic rite? maybe mentally tired.. n i need to just go have a walk..

yep but nice that sarah called.. haha somehow so heng i managed to meet u all.. but quite a pity it was just meet n go.. well.. din talk much to the guys.. but haha as usual its so nice seeing u gal n just talk~ maybe can meet up again another time n at least sit down n chat loh haha

saw tt bit of fireworks.. hmm nth much can be said lah.. haha its really like saw part of the fireworks for like 1 moment.. haha.. nvm~ then i came up with this on the bus there..

the most beautiful moment cannot be captured. it can only be felt.

fireworks are pretty..
they are only beautiful if u could truly enjoy the moment

lessons learnt from the prev experience.. not to try to capture the moment using camera.. u shld just enjoy it~

i enjoy watching fireworks.. but i want it to be a good memory.. not to remind me of sth sad.. so yep sorry..

i guess some thgs are just over.. there is no use talking abt them.. but then again they are still part of the memories.. we dont have anything great to rmb.. but the most precious things i guess are the feelings i once had.. all kinda feelings..

(sorry nai niang i cldnt figure if we are watching or nai pa is bringing u there or what is happening betw u guys)

anw geisha.. i felt it was just average.. i dunno if its cuz of the movie or cuz of the company.. or because i expected what was going to happen in the movie.. but i still love the english subtitles.. =)

i guess its an awkward situation.. im sorry abt it.. shant repeat the mistake

i thot i was that strong.. but i guess sometimes i will kinda falter

i think i need a reminder haha!

i wanna care for u.. but i dunno how to.. i dunno how to approach u.. i dunno if i will make u feel worse.. even as i leave u alone.. it doesnt mean i dont care k..

dont assume who's that u.. too bad!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:29:00 AM

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