Born into attitude
Asleep at the wheel
Throw all your bullets in the fire
And run like hell
What is the fever?
What ever happened to sweat?

Thursday, September 30, 2004

hmm suddenly sense the urgency.. 5 days for 4 subj.. n so much to cover.. wasted like 3 days.. n now like quite lost.. shld do some tys qn to prepare myself for consultation tmr.. but feel so empty.. onli touched organic chem these days.. n best still covered sooo little.. (as gd as nv read thru anythg) can feel tt i really nv do anythg for those days.. slping away most of the time.. seriously wad was i thinking of..

oh well.. just gotta make gd use of the time i haf.. think as usual i will just do in for exams w/o finishing my revision~

pple thanks for the concern but pls don nag.. feeling quite bad le

girl, you gotta have attitude
5:17:00 PM

yeah gaigai blogged abt me!! heex.. u sure we met in jan??! haha nvm lah glad i met u! hahaha in such a weird way.. n tt time i rmbed ur name cuz in sec 4 i also have a classmate with rebonded hair call huiting!! hahhaa pan huiting~ sounds so like yijun n her twinnie in sch~ anw.. i still rmb that helpless smile!!! wahahahaha sound so pathetic loh.. hmm not bad u still rmbed wad i said.. haha.. roughly there lah.. so happy to see u at orientation also.. could recognise u budden don rmb i still rmb ur name not.. wahhaa so compli.. but u're like the onli person i noe.. felt so lost in the sea of fm students~ ya n jess with her yoyo.. make so much noise den thot k lah this girl quite sociable.. n the best thg.. she transferred from 57!! hahah was thinking wah this girl siao wan..

hahah we like talking to each other on blogs again.. hmm i really forget how gaigai came abt.. but ya sort of rmb abt saying we go gaigai.. haha n u're like the merissa after 1st 3 mths!! rmb tt time i told u abt my 1st 3 mths family.. den she's my princess~ hee.. those kinda look quiet but can b quite lame (witty for her case lol).. quite a sweetie.. haha just find both of u quite similar.. hard to put in words..

siann seriously i think i need to plan ahead n ask pple out to study.. haha just plain lazy n yep i'm stucked at home again.. thot i was the onli one so ambitious to wanna finish organic chem yest.. but well.. hahaha ernie is also so ambitious~ HCL unite! hehe.. somemore i pigged so late again.. i dowan to b like pork!!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:15:00 PM

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

blogger can b my most freq visited site le..

hahha the long ago joke~ so long nv suan pple le.. well tts part of it.. nice!!

pOrk: u mux sui2 chuan2 sui2 dao4 ok
me: see 1st loh
me: hahaha
me: i not cao cao
pork: hahahaha
pork: then u be hua hua lorx

(lousy blog i copy over all the nick get screwed up)

oh well.. kitkat for the day~ think pple getting cornier after all the exams stress?

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:18:00 PM

inspired by bendan's entry.. hahaha inspiring one another..

hmm often we keep thinking abt dream guy.. how gd n this n tt.. budden again.. sometimes it's just good to stay simple.. haha really.. now tt i think of it.. i really wan a simpler guy now.. haha v hard to define.. budden just all the simple thgs.. those silly kinda sweet thgs he does.. just veri simple kinda sweetness.. some stuff just too hard to put in words~ just wan the kinda veri innocent r'ship.. can talk to him.. spend time with him enjoying the slow pace kinda life.. the beauty of life n stuff.. just make me feel veri relaxed.. n don hafta worry abt anythg.. just be myself..

haha k thinking alot again.. guess most of my life is abt day-dreaming.. yep i'll b patient~ somehow there will b someone who thinks the same way as i do.. hmm like how i found gaigai? haha ya true to say it will come when u least expect it too..

sometimes as more thgs come along our way.. we'll forget wad exactly do we want.. we get distracted.. n lose our direction.. yep i'll find back that direction..

looking at my baby pooh~ hee it's simply so cute.. remind me of the times we studied chem in cafe~ hahaha simply having lotsa fun.. hmm though he was so nice teaching me all the chem stuff n ya some other nice stuff as well.. guess theres the other side of him which is not as nice.. just too complex for me i guess.. ya aniwae the hua chi (according to pork who is actually the one fa-ing hua chi) period is over i guess.. maybe sometimes will enjoy talking to him but ya.. just another guy passing by~

just feel the urge to talk to pork now.. haha dunno y also.. rmb we once clicked quite well n talked abt stuff.. but ya seldom like really talk after tt also.. oh well~ haha really in hols mood manx.. catching up with one another's life~ like we're really that free.. wahahaha

hmm most prob gonna trim my hair later.. seriously cannot stand it laaa.. it's just NOT me..

yeah can go for the wedding dinner on friday cuz there's like still some vacant seats.. hmm doesnt sound tt great but well tts not the pt.. haha at least i can go~ woohoo hope wont get reminded of stuff.. hee.. den think too much? still rmb tt time went for my relative's wedding.. was so touched when they played once in a million.. den the groom was saying how fortunate he is to meet the gal~ ya den eyes were like wet wet de.. so sweeet

lalaaala~ i'm like in my own world again.. hee fairy land? dreaming of my imaginary prince charming? haha forgot who said tt le~ STM.. nice cool weather.. slight rain.. the nice climate to get emotional..

k lah abit out of pt

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:54:00 PM

gaigai!! haha we're like talking to each other in our blogs again.. commenting abt each other's entry.. haha.. yes!! the crying thg reminds me of nats.. after the screwed up relay.. hugged my teammate den she started crying n all tt.. at least we noe that yep everythg will b fine.. like went back there.. we were hugging one another n was like so nice!! comforting one another n like really everythg was okie after tt.. miss the times manx!! hahah n really thot of a few of those crying times.. hehe n the hugs were great! from snrs.. teammates n all.. all the screw up cases became like not tt bad afterall.. well.. n for that sort of darker side of the memories.. yep somehow it will come along like any memories i have with all my frens.. but anw.. haha i'll make sure 2dae is not another screwed up day! hehe.. i'll b strong n i'll b fine~ n seriously gaigai.. the more we talk abt them the more we'll miss the hugs! hahaa.. k hope to see u soon.. hee our hug-date~ hahaha so many dates..

hmm think i'll do a list of the thgs to do after promos n my wish list.. haha like the one i have in my notebook? hehe

listening to fly away~ haha miss the days when we kept singing the song.. class time choir.. n somehow we just refuse to sing for someone not worth our effort~ hahaha.. so nice!

read ernie's blog.. haha ya read abt the mrs leow thg.. haha n mr chan's lameness.. ya guess i share some similar thots as him as well.. haha how life has become so boring.. how we're like not veri tuned to the class freq.. blah blah n all.. haha guess it's just all choices we make.. n yep the hydrochloric gang rox! heehee.. so nice the other day when we were writing on each others back n somehow he also wrote the HCL rox thg! guess those breaks were nice even though we were not doing work.. n yep 1st 3 mths HCL gang was so nice also

heex thanks pple for pampering me!! hsekeeper~ hee.. i just thot of u n u happen to b online.. but well u cant read this also.. u're like always taking care of me lidat.. haha somehow.. blessed queen.. hee.. n yep grand advisor as well.. i will eat laa.. really miss those fun times.. haha n we really pamper princess~ hahaa how we went to shop for her bdae pressie.. was so nice.. n her sHoE (xie2 zhi4 or sth rite?) figurine still in my hse.. n tt rabbit notebook that we failed to write for her.. haha.. those days were nice when we take care of one another.. well for now.. haha jess really pamper me also.. so sweet~ gaigai n bendan's postcards~ yijun's smses after some 'farewell'.. haha.. pork's sweet smses.. oh ya i kept all the smses u all sent me b4 my race.. haha took up quite alot of space but was so sweet! thanks a lot dearies~

hungry.. but duck rice is on the way back! yum yum

must get back my appetite 2dae! haha

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:02:00 PM

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

i miss the hugs.. gaigai, mama, nai niang, brother.. ahhh everyone!! think all 8 of u guys? during comps, nats.. the times when i was sad.. when i was happy.. when we didnt see each other for quite some time.. ahh those hugs were great! miss the tight hug.. haha n gaigai was so sweet.. hee thanks gal~(k lah others who nv hug me but said sweet thgs to me.. ya u all are sweet too) hmm n somehow i sort of miss that special hug too.. oh well~

i really miss the 8 of u all!! ahh we seriously need to meet up one day.. n pple come for sa open hse!! haha just for fun.. n i can bring u all ard the sch.. for dunno wad gd reason.. hmm.. when's ac open hse? hope doesnt clash.. somehow got the feeling will.. haha nvm.. really looking forward to meeting u guys after promos!!

k sth i read the day b4 or sth.. from gaigai's blog long long time ago.. hee paiseh lah i'm not LAG k.. just lost touch with blogs..

was juz thinking.. sometimes we make certain decisions that we later regret.. but somehow.. at that time when u make that certain decision.. everything juz seems to click in and it all seems so right. but very often.. it is after that when u start to regret wad u said or promised or even turned down.. wadever.. the idea is dere~ nwae.. yeapx.. as i was saying.. i'm at a total loss... was tinking mayb i somehow have made alot of very wrong decisions.. but somehow.. i can't take them back or change them now.. itz juz too late.. urrgh. i dunno how to say lah.. itz juz tt.. i'm feeling so stupid for mking certain decisions then.. but again, they juz seemed the right thing to do at that time.. argh. how m i supposed to noe when i'm making the correct decision or not?

haha.. dunno wad are the wrong decisions u made.. but well was thinking of some thgs den thot of this entry.. yep i always say i wont regret any decisions i make.. but well.. seriously i dunno if i made the correct decision nots.. k lah maybe it's just some mood swing days again when i start to think too much.. haha ya n i don always have pms laaa.. anw.. think my decisions n stuff i said have caused some thgs to turn out the way it is 2dae.. well guess theres really no pt to regret also.. i nv noe how thgs will turn out to b if i made a different decision.. who noes it's even worse~ haha..

guess there are just some pt in time.. when u really need someone.. as in not like any other fren.. hmm hope u get the idea~ someone who will take care of u.. n just let u feel that yep everythg will b fine.. haha guess gaigai understands.. hee.. to think of it we seem to have quite similar freq.. since the dance days to orientation to our date~ hahaha..

well pple.. hope all of u are getting on well with preparation n wad crap.. yep sort of miss u guys.. haha noe it's just one day but ya.. hsekeeper!! dunno if u're studying but yepx u noe clearly wad u hafta do.. squirrel.. haha seriously i dunno if u're still reading my blog.. but ya.. think u're getting on well.. just don go crazy pls..

dandans: xiaodan i talked abt u so many times in the entry le.. haha.. pork!! wadeva dan u are.. don keep thinking of someone hor.. bendan.. make me sound so bad for calling u tt.. u also don keep thinking of ahem k.. anw to all the dans.. think all of u are mugging hard.. must take care k.. n yep we can do it!

yk: thanks for the support! haha.. at least i noe someone reads my entries.. k since u dowan to b called mugger.. well smart kid! hmm just take care k.. since u're like more or less done with ur revision.. freako

gabe: i'll treat u one fine day lah.. haha.. well.. u're on MC laaa so yepx rest well

jnrs who happen to pop by which i think is super rare.. study hard k pple.. though i noe most of u will b slacking like i used to.. for those who are on the verge of going mad.. eh seriously relax abit lah.. too much stress is bad.. well.. come to sa open hse! hehe.. really miss u guys!!

to the newbie here: hope u like my blog.. jiayou for A's n wadeva papers u haf b4 tt..

well.. to those not included in the above.. haha pls tag so tt i noe u're here.. oh ya beav u once tagged but dunno if u still pop by.. ya jiayou for promos also~

listening to stay the same.. ahh it's not supposed to remind me of the past.. but somehow i just cant erase the memory from me.. wore that shirt 2dae.. just cant help it.. simply like the shirt alot but y does it hafta bring back so much memories.. just cant bear to keep the shirt aside.. not because of u... but because i really like the shirt.. issit because of that i really wan a hug 2dae.. cuz tt day u hugged me so tightly.. telling me everythg is fine.. all the horrible times were over.. or rather.. the start of a new nightmare? issit because it's over tts y i'm seeing it in such a negative way.. or issit just that the true u..

guess thats the 2% i cant get over with.. k wadeva~

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:21:00 PM

Monday, September 27, 2004

i wan a small digi cam!! wanna capture all the fun times.. rmb the happy times i have.. remind me of the great times..

yes i'm a pampered child.. thgs seems to get on quite well.. yepx bound to b ups n downs.. n i cant expect everythg to go my way.. oh well.. maybe tts y some thgs just hafta seem so screwed up..

pls don let me lose faith.. pls give me the strength to keep believing.. pls give me the patience to wait for that day to come..

pls don let me feel that emptiness n loneliness.. i'm afraid.. i hate this feeling.. cuz it really frightens me..

i noe i hafta wait.. but how long am i going to wait? i'm losing the patience.. the faith.. the strength.. n evrythg i need to go on..

no matter how long the race seems to be.. i noe i'm approaching the finishing.. but now.. where's the finishing..

the ny track spirit.. never give up until u cross the finishing line..

spirit of the true ny hurdler.. never be afraid of obstacles ahead for u will get over them..

well.. life still goes on.. n yep i'll find my way thru!

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:02:00 PM

ahhh i seriously dunno wads wrong with my eye.. super pain.. still go swim 2dae w/o goggles.. shit manx.. i can live w/o contacts with this spastic hairstyle laa.. crap.. look like some nerd suffering from exam stress.. bleh.. no way manx i need to do sth abt it!! ahh n stoopid eye-mo isnt helping i think~ crap shit.. dowan to go optician.. haix.. quite scared tt it's some kinda infection or dunno wad shit.. den mummy sure niao me like siao cuz of contacts.. but well.. hope it's like wad bongie say.. too heaty den the flesh inside the eye swollen (bad translation)? wahaha wadeva lah.. but the pt is.. cannot wear contacts!!!! ahhhhh

was so great meeting up with nai niang 2dae.. haha also forgot how we became so close.. still rmb those days i wasnt even close to her.. hmm maybe after some guys talk or sth? seriously i don rmb.. yep den realise we actually click quite well.. n it's so great talking to each other! wahhahaa~ another great day after the airport talk.. hehx.. accompanied her to this not veri interesting checkup.. went to her hse.. haha so farni.. her dog is soooo violent lah.. like trying to climb up my legs lidat.. crap sia.. den scratched me.. heng his/her nails not tt sharp.. i got enuff cut from the stoopid shoe/slipper/sandals.. haha hiao lah~ so cool always go her hse to eat.. n her mama noes us so well also not paiseh already.. haha.. seems like ur mama always cook some kinda cabbage related soup.. lolx~ so cool.. not like i can go anyone's hse n like eat in peace n so shuang buey paiseh.. lolx

nth much to reflect 2dae~ haha.. shall not comment abt paper.. oh well.. pple try to get down to study if u noe u need to.. haha even though u think u don need to study.. eh study abit laa.. give face..

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:19:00 PM

Sunday, September 26, 2004

as i'm revising for gp.. reading essays n arguments brought forward in these essays.. i'm convinced that academic excellence isnt everythg.. learning is much more than academic education.. so why am i still studying so hard?

guess it's because parents do not think this way? pple ard us do not think this way as well? it's like although we know our results are not everythg.. we're still prone to try to get much better results.. maybe it's sth already instilled in us years ago..

i'm convinced that i shld read more n expand on my vocab.. well.. tmr's paper isnt everythg.. just another practice i guess.. haha n guess this entry is the most standard-english one so far other den all the short-forms~ (not counting those i copied from somewhere)

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:09:00 PM

A woman was out golfing one day when she hit the ball into the woods. She went into the woods to look for it and found a frog in a trap. The frog said to her, "If you release me from this trap, I will grant you three wishes."

The woman freed the frog, and the frog said, "Thank you, but I failed to mention that there was a condition to your wishes. Whatever you wish for, your husband will get ten times more or better!" The woman said, "That's okay."

For her first wish, she wanted to be the most beautiful woman in the world. The frog warned her, "You do realize that this wish will also make your husband the most handsome man in the world, an Adonis whom women will flock to. " The woman replied, "That's okay, because I will be the most beautiful woman and he will have eyes only for me." So, KAZAM-she's the most beautiful woman in the world!

For her second wish, she wanted to be the richest woman in the world. The frog said, "That will make your husband the richest man in the world and he will be ten times richer than you. " The woman said, "That's okay, because what's mine is his and what's his is mine." So, KAZAM-she's the richest woman in the world!

The frog then inquired about her third wish, and she answered, "I'd like a mild heart attack."


Moral of the story: Women are clever. Don't mess with them.

Attention female readers: This is the end of the joke for you. Stop here and continue feeling good.

Male readers: Please scroll down.














The man had a heart attack ten times milder than his wife!!!

Moral of the story: Women are really dumb but think they're really smart. Let them continue to think that way and just enjoy the show ....

-wadever!- haha just find this quite nice.. eh guys can just go feel gd abt themselves.. it's just a story~

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:08:00 PM

Saturday, September 25, 2004

free-style classical ballet..

many teenagers and adults wished they had taken up classical ballet. come and join our beginners classes. no experience is necessary.

woohoo~ it's never too late to do anythg.. life is short.. try ur best to realise ur dreams so that u will not have any regrets! tuesday 7.45 - 8.45 which falls on trng day.. hmm also dunno how.. cant poss go down after trng seriously i think i'll just die.. maybe go take a look 1st den see how.. dunno if i mentioned.. somehow as i walked past that place (specialist centre or sth..) i just naturally look at the directory n spotted this dance arts pte ltd.. somehow i just went up n take a look.. n yep it's really so cool! esp to noe that they have courses for teens.. haha it just feels so magical.. like y will i go look at directory.. haha.. it's as though someone helping me path the way~ so cool.. telling me hey this is wad u wan n it's not impossible..

haha so exciting~ shall see how it goes

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:56:00 PM

2dae was such a great day.. really had a gd laff manx.. haha cannot imagine how great the power is when snowman meets kazua! great to meet up with alvin n talk abt 77 thgs again! haha one day all of us must really hang out tog.. really miss the 77 days.. n hopefully one day i will say i miss 12 also~

shall cut this short.. haha was like some intensive trng just now laffing non-stop.. trains so many grps of muscles.. from cheek to abs.. n also trains stamina.. n ya aniwae laffing is gd for health.. so we shld have more of such stuff.. haha rmb 9th of the month used to b ice cream day.. budden nv happened.. haha.. den snowman was saying 25th b the laffing day.. haha.. anw think start of witty family was on 25th or sth also.. haha cant rmb.. anw 25th used to b a really special day.. became a remind-me-of-memories day.. till now i got over with it n yepx 25th is just another day n i'll make it a gd day.. no more sad stuff!

really hope everyone can kope well with emotional stuff during this period of time.. it would b really tough for those who is going thru some not so gd time.. but yep be clear wad u have to do at this pt of time.. n don let urself down..

well tts abt all for the day.. gp is sooo near n i can sense it.. better do sth tmr manx.. been slacking again.. gotta get back to studying!

forgot the feeling of being in love with someone..
but i'll never forget the feeling of loving someone..
cuz i always love u!

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:57:00 PM

Friday, September 24, 2004

hee thanks peeps! haha ya warm water is here..

hmm yepx 2dae was great! really enjoyed life manx.. 1st was chocolate fondue! yes the day is finally here.. haha.. yep n after tt.. was massage! haha realise it's more than shoulder massage.. upper body massage.. was really super gd at that instant.. but realise actually more force can be applied.. oh well.. it's onli the 1st time.. yepx n the finale was dinner at this hotel.. granduncle's bdae.. the food was great though it was too healthy in the sense.. haha so veggie kinda feeling.. yepx guess tts cos most of the pple there are like those of the older generation.. oh n shuaige cousin is getting shuaier.. serious laa.. u seldom hear me saying a guy shuai lah.. haha shuaige snr downgrade abit le.. but well still using the term though.. k but this time my cousin is really veri shuai laaa.. n wads best he's getting shuaier.. oh manx.. n yep he got this really nice smile.. n the way he speaks sound so pro n nice~ hmm k shall not fa hua chi..

yepx sth i thot abt when i was at the massage place.. haha guess i'm so blessed to b able to enjoy such gd thgs laaa.. haha next wish will b foot massage n pedicure~ really noe how to enjoy life manx.. yepx aniwae the main pt is that those pple who work there are mostly pple who are visually impaired.. although they cant see how beautiful the surroundings are.. but i believe they can see how beautiful life is with their heart! i really admire how they can provide service to others.. it's like yi ji4 zhi1 chang2.. n i can feel how tiring it is trying to exert force n stuff.. n the rest they get is sooo short.. n yet they have no complains.. i can really feel that they wanna do their best n they find pleasure in doing sth useful.. ahh i really dunno how to get the pt across.. noe it's like they are so strong to be able to accept all these n like conquer it.. it's not like they just accept their fate that yes this is what they are n they just depend on pple to take care of them n help them.. seriously if jiejie didnt tell me i couldnt even tell they are visually impaired.. it's like they are so independent.. n ya they have this clock thg.. tat they press den will tell them the time.. haix can u imagine u cant even see whether its day or nite.. all u noe is this idea of the time.. like k wadeva time the thg tells u.. n tts the time.. oh manx tts like so scary!! really admire them!

i really feel so blessed.. to b able to see the beauty of life with my eyes.. feel it with my heart.. n yep doing sth i truly enjoy~

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:22:00 PM

a simple smile
speaks more than a thousand words

it reaches out right into your heart
filling it with the warmth n the love..

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:49:00 PM

http://wxy4.nease.net/xinliceshi2.htm

the song is nice.. dunno wad song issit though.. so lovey dovey n emotional kind~ haha.. but ya syllabus b find some prob reading the text.. oh well.. morn mummy came into my room n we talked abt alot of thgs.. bgr as well.. guess it's true that u gotta b clear wad u wan out of the r-ship.. haha guess pple in the past really consider the guy as someone u wanna spend the rest of ur life with.. oh well.. maybe it's like wad mummy says.. shld concentrate on studies now.. guys ard our age are like still quite unstable in the sense.. n like don even noe if he can support u in the future.. k lah thats like abit too far.. but yep.. most of us just look at the present.. how nice he is to u.. but yep wad will eventually happen in the past..

he's a special guy.. got along well with him.. just click so well.. y cant everythg stay simple.. y do u hafta think so much.. abt bgr n stuff.. isnt it better to just remain as fren.. wheres the simple n innocent world..

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:42:00 PM

THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TELL A GUY

If you see me walking the road with someone else,
It's not because I like his accompany...

Its because you're not brave enough to walkbeside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me

Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him..

But because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?..

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him,
It's you I want to walk with..

Don't let me talk of him,
it's you I want to talk with..

Don't let me fall for him,
It's you I want to fall in love with..

"HOW THE GUY REPLY" ??..

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you

I was behind you every step of the way

Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat

I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to loose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,
It was because you never gave me the chance

You never reached the bottom,
you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere,
I too am lost

I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?

Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side

Don't let me talk of something else
It's you I want to talk with

Don't let me fall for someone else
It's you I want to fall in love with.

WHEN I SAW YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU...

WHEN I TALKED TO YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU...

WHEN I HOLD YOU...

I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU...

NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ...

I'M AFRAID TO LOOSE YOU...

YESTERDAY IS HISTORY...
TOMORROW IS A MYSTERY...
AND TODAY IS A GIFT...

THAT'S WHY IT'S CALLED A PRESENT...

SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...
BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT...

THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...

HOLD ON TO THE PERSON U LOVE...
BEFORE THEY SLIP AWAY...
OR ELSE U CAN NEVER GET THEM BACK...

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:28:00 PM

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girl, you gotta have attitude
1:24:00 PM

Thursday, September 23, 2004

oh ya gaigai.. the bear hug was great! thanks dear.. n for the postcard too.. yepx jiayou!! love ya loads~

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:16:00 PM

finally can take a break.. oh well.. scary that promos is just so near.. went to settle the tshirt stuff for ocip.. haix like hafta go thru so much crap.. got cheated buy tt super nice uncle.. after long long story n all.. finally told us he cant do the gradient for us.. no choice went down parklane to check out n stuff.. had such a great time with geraldine.. haha she really miss 77 alot also!! like the fun times we had playing bball n during pe.. really so active n all of us could just play tog.. carrom.. the hcl pple slacking tog.. n she was saying.. if onli all of us could stay tog as a class.. yep guess it was really veri nice.. though now we're still all in the same sch.. but new frens come along the way n we're like not tt close animore.. yep n we were saying during 1st 3 mths.. we're like closer to the class.. n for her to bowlers n og pple also.. yep guess we just have pple to hang out with like after sch or sth.. k maybe it's not so bad now.. but yep there's still this thg that i guess is hard to explain.. hmm maybe those ex 77 pple will understand how i feel~

yep i'm like super tired after walking here n there n standing ard the shop trying to decide sth.. n best thg is ms tan is complaining tt it's veri ex.. haix the design is liek so colourful laaa.. n we wan polo tee.. n some not bad quality kind.. sooo hard to find a cheap one.. but it's like we really dowan to compromise n do sth not as nice.. aniwae after saving few dollars.. we wont wanna wear the shirt.. wads the pt.. but well hafta discuss with the rest of the team.. seriously its gd to have all the deals for tshirts n stuff.. haha depends on wad kinda tshirt wad kinda design den where to print it n stuff.. oh ya sth cool for the guys.. haha special present for ur gal~ hmm maybe can try designing sth.. den personalise n print for her.. this really unique shirt just for her! haha provided the design is nice.. yepx.. quite cool i guess..

took bus home after all the recky.. was so tired n wanted to sit down on the bus lah.. n this freaking guy.. he just dowan to let me in!!! irritating laaa.. like wad rubbish.. sit on 1 seat n leave the other one empty lidat.. n the bus is like bit crowded.. was like excuse me.. den he look at me n ignore!! irrrrritating.. den fine i just ignored him.. after tt got a seat.. like ya finally can rest.. n yep after a while this guy walked in.. den he just siam n let him sit.. ehhhh i really suspect he's gay lah n he looks like one.. some kinda weirdo thg trying to read mag with super alot of words under veri dim light.. simply weird laa.. haix.. ya n wads worse.. was sitting outside.. den i cant slp!! haha cuz will like nod n nod den suay to the outside.. miss the shoulder*... oh well.. haha i still doze off lah.. eh n seriously i think it's not a gd idea to stick all the advert crap at the side of the bus lah.. when i woke up i din even noe where i was!! cannot even see laaa.. den after a while like figure out where exactly i am.. eh if i miss the stop.. n it takes so long for me to figure out.. hmm bet i'll b like at some farni place far away from my hse.. k at least i didnt miss the stop..

shit i'm feeling crap now lah.. haha after being so mentally n physically drained out.. wanna go run tmr morn.. budden i rather have a gd slp.. been so long since i pigged late.. dilemma.. ahhh n this freaking mosquito sting me lah!! haha shit either i'm super lag or my eng is deproving.. kept thinking abt stink.. n just cant think of the right spelling.. n ya issit sting in the 1st place.. sui bian laa.. chi syllabus b.. think now eng also doing to b syllabus b alr.. of ya abt the mosquito.. smart lah attack that beeeg vein on my feet.. freaking itchy n super swollen.. ahh i'm feeling crap.. my feet hurts seriously.. ahh all the stoopid deform crap n injury.. ya n sooo smart bang onto my keyboard tray.. was like really veri loud la!! haix wad a day manx.. though sch was quite gd 2dae~ but hmm...

guess tis entry is sooo crap~ wads with this shitty colour.. suits how i feel now.. blehx.. haix n i really cant stand my hair laaa.. wad top stylist cut my hair until lidat.. haha but it's comforting when i saw my mum with the new haircut 2dae~ ahhh screwed up laa.. my comp is like how long onli.. kena that crap shit with all the pop-ups also!! cheater

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:32:00 PM

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

everythg seems so different.. jiu ming ah!!! changed comp.. i din even noe my uncle came to fix the comp for me.. n i'm not even at home.. hmm everythg is so strange.. korkor passed me his keyboard n mouse which is seriously weird n got alot of function i don even noe how to use them.. miss my old keyboard n mouse.. ahhh now my typing like v slow.. everythg is cordless now.. but ya hope i don hafta do anythg farni.. the display is kinda screwed up.. super beeeeg lah.. suits u man wz.. dunno how to change it also.. haix one day need to slowly explore the comp manx.. xp seems kinda chim.. ahhh i really miss my old comp.. oh well.. shld adapt to changes.. haix i noe it's gd for me in the long run..........

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:45:00 PM

woohoo finally done with pw! shuang.. 12 midnite now! oh well.. wanted to blog just now budden told myself gotta do gp n pw.. so proud of myself! poor printer printed 23 pages of crap.. bet baba wont bother much abt it also~

yep i got inspired to cut short my sentences.. yep basically shall follow that chain of thot just now.. turn back time

went hbf to study.. guess thats the best place so far.. i'm glad i have frens who wanan study with me! din mind studying there alone.. but yep found someone there.. studied tog for a while.. did maths for the 1+ hr stay at hbf.. n i gotta say it's great! i can feel myself getting down to work n enjoying fm.. can u believe it.. n i realise i spend so long doing just 2 qns.. but yep it's all worth it cuz i could feel the sense of satisfaction.. 1st order DE is great! changing stories into equations n solving them.. n cant believe we're talking maths even in our lives! haha..

yep went back myself.. no more pampered kid for the nite.. everythg was so familiar.. so great.. felt so at home.. n i noe this is where i wanna be.. went to int.. waited for 93.. yep that familiar seat.. the nice evening breeze brushing thru my face.. the nite is so quiet.. n i can finally feel the slow-pace kinda life.. really enjoy the moment.. n guess i've conquered the emotions in me! i no longer miss him.. really.. all the double decks n stuff.. it onli struck me that yes i've done that b4.. but he's no longer part of my life! he's just part of that memory.. whether sweet or nice or wadeva i dunno.. but yep i noe he's still a fren.. since all of my fren are special.. yep he's just a special fren.. who share a differenent kinda memory with me? but ya everyone is different anw..

enjoyed the breeze.. looked out of the window.. saw pple playing bball.. the times when a sec sch girl sat at the side of the court watching him play.. grow up n still sitting with a fren by the side of the court watching.. it's part of my life.. n yep just memories.. looked up in the sky.. no stars though.. but yep the little part of the moon.. guess i haven looked at the sky for quite some time.. life is beautiful.. i'm convinced.. feel the kinda life in u.. the kinda life u wan.. even if it's just for a moment.. enjoy the moment..

find that little joy in life.. n truly enjoy.. n yep the slacker is getting down to work n enjoying her work! really thankful that i've finally settled down! haha.. guess the prayers are comforting..

i can really feel that smile thats coming from right inside me! it feels great!! i wan all of u to now how i'm feeling! woohoo~ it's really so great.. can u feel it? hee.. hope one day u'll feel the same too!

supposed to revise physics.. i'm thankful i have a fren who cares so much abt my progress in revision n wans to work tog with me! promised jess i will do.. n yep though it's late.. at least do sth~ feeling so gd now.. can feel that strength in me.. just hope tmr i will wake up fresh n ready for school.. n pray hard baba don eat up my early day.. i need to study! n i wan to.. like wow how rare.. pls let me study!

exams coming.. take gd care of urself.. drink more water.. haha ya keep going toilet these days ever since i got my baobei no. 2 but well it's worth it.. pls don fall sick during this crucial period.. well gabe: i keep repeating myself but thats the onli stuff i can think of? ya take care anw~

still long entry.. why?!

girl, you gotta have attitude
1:02:00 AM

Sunday, September 19, 2004

ya someone told me it's a waste of time blogging.. but well.. hafta say wad i wanna say.. i really wan all of u to noe.. u guys mean alot to me!! there may be times when i seem to b like bochup u or sth in the sense.. or maybe get irritated over sth? not telling u sth? ps u (for wadeva kinda reason).. i'm really sorry abt all that.. i gotta admit that sometimes i have moodswing.. n thats not like an excuse or sth.. at times i may neglect u.. but pls believe that i treat u as a great fren n i'm glad i have u as a fren.. n i really care abt u.. ya considering u noe the address to my blog.. sth that means alot to me.. as far as i noe.. all those who read my blog.. in the sense ever tagged.. all of u mean alot to me! sometimes i really dunno wad to do n wad to say.. just don wish to see u feeling down n stuff.. ya n i realise that u gotta show ur fren that they mean sth to u n u care for them (if thats the case).. n not hafta wait till they are feeling down or sth..

to those whom i ever talked to when u're feeling down.. really hope u've felt better after wad i've said.. esp those who are like brothers n sisters to me!

to everyone.. whether i've told u this or i've not.. ya just a reminder: there's someone who loves u n u gotta believe that! yes i love u!! whether as a special fren (guess most of u are), a bro, a sis, an angel? ya wadeva.. maybe one day i will have the courage to tell u! i've forgotten the feeling of liking someone (in the bgr sense).. i've forgotten the feeling of having a guy who truly loves u n dotes on u.. everythg is like some kinda memory thats so far away from me.. sth so foreign.. sth thats all imaginary.. but for frens.. i noe i have u pple even though u're not always there with me physically.. u guys always surprise me at times.. telling me that i'm not alone n u indeed care for me.. i cherish all the special frenship i have.. all the meeting up once in a while.. yep 2dae's studying session n bus trip was nice! so nice to see that smile on ur face!

pls don b troubled by all the bgr stuff.. it's a nice thg.. whether u believe it or not.. saw so many pple going thru all the ups n downs.. n ya i went thru all that also.. there's no pt being so upset n all.. noe wad u're in for n wad u wan.. n liek wad i always say.. follow ur heart n use ur brain.. n be happy abt life.. do wad u wan.. but also think if u shld really b doing that.. seriously i wanna drop out of sch.. cuz i don like the kinda lifestyle.. but on the other hand.. even though i hate all the studying n wad crap.. i enjoy the times i spend with frens trying to study.. i enjoy all the fun we had while playing, chatting, n all the stuff i would nv experience if i haven been here.. i noe truly that at this veri moment i shld b doing work.. but i really wanna do sth thats to me more impt than all the results n wad stuff.. ya the veri 1st time i screwed up my studies was cuz of bgr in sec 2.. n from then on.. i just felt that being gd in studies isnt everythg.. life is not abt getting really gd results.. ya n guess it was from that moment i became a slacker n my studies have gradually dropped..

looking back at my life.. i don rmb a single thg i did in sec 1.. ya had gd results i guess.. sec 2 was quite fun.. n i ended up in com 2 (trip sci single humans which is sort of 2nd grade in ny) but i gotta say thats wad i really wan.. n i'm glad that i've slacked n got wad i wan.. yes that MY philosophy! seriously live ur own life!! ya n i think slacked too much n my o's results is not really wad i'm up to.. slacked too much for sciences.. i din even study hard enuff.. but yepx no regret as usual.. i will nv regret anythg i've done.. ya n guess i'm happy i got into sa.. quite silly to have wanted to appeal to hc.. cuz i was like feeling spas that i don even mean much to u pple y shld i bother to stay here in sa.. total crap.. but ya i noe this is a place for me.. =)

ya have made up my mind to study occupational therapy.. wanna get scholarship.. whether the nyp or some unknown overseas scholarship.. i wanna take up dance lesson!! i wanna do sth i always like b4 it's really too late.. i really dunno what will happen in the future.. but at least i noe i have a direction.. i wanna live life to the fullest.. doing what i really wan.. it's quite a sad thg hearing abt pple say how long they wish to live.. n ya tts like quite short?! but well it's ur own life ur own choice.. well seriously i've always wished that i will die on the same day as my husband cuz i nv wanna b alone n i dowan him to b alone.. k quite a spas thg.. but ya had that thot when i was quite young~ n i haven convinced myself to change it..

actually wad i really wan in life.. all the dreams i wanan realise b4 that scary moment comes.. i wanna earn money n go shopping with the money i've earned.. i wanna drive my own VW beetle.. i wanna b a great wife n a great mum n meet/find (cant find the right word) the great hubby.. ya get to dance.. yep guess by then i'll b able to leave w/o regrets? k all these are just meant for me to keep track of wad i wan in my life.. n the different stages of my life!

wanted to forward a sms.. came from pork.. haha felt so emotional abt it.. yep it's liek knowing that the person is in love n wans to be in love.. (xingfu xiao nu ren) ahh budden all the dilema whether to edit the msg not n to send not.. haix.. though i don believe it will work.. but i wanan b xingfu! haha.. n i wanna share the nice text with u pple.. budden again if i forward w/o the chain mail thg it seems weird.. if i send with that.. hmm feel bad cuz i noe u all wont forward.. haha k it's such a spas thg la!! y issit all abt love again?!?!

i cant imagine i said so much here n not doing work? issit a waste of time.. i really dunno.. but i noe i'm doing sth meaningful at least to me..

ya the stoopid fone cheat my feelings.. k lah yes i love u can?!?1 haha stoopid gal.. actually i thot i nv even forward the msg at all..

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:51:00 PM

Saturday, September 18, 2004

was super excited n typed a super long entry.. n guess wad.. supposed to highlight n copy.. i highlighted the entire thg n somehow pressed delete.. crapx

shit lah now got no feeling to update le.. haix was like super excited just now.. oh well.. talked a whole lot abt maf.. dancing, singing n wad stuff.. all the great thgs.. haix was having a headache but insisted on blogging n yes!!! wads this crap lah.. see the whole lot gone n find my finger on the delete button.. ahhhhhh crap!!!!

oh well.. haix super ultra sad now la!!!!!!!! ya maf was great.. n now i don feel a single shit animore.. wadeva i say now i don even feel anythg.. ya was nice meeting up with nainiang mama n alfie.. miss u all so much.. ahhhhhhhhhhhh sux!! not even coming out from me animore.. i wan my entry!!!!!! super screwed up la.. just wads wrong??!!! fine maybe i really shldnt keep thinking of the past.. n thinking of hc? wadeva crap shit!! feel so cheated n really super sad laaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! so tired of it le lah.. think u guys wont ever hear wad i wanted say le.. haix.. sickening la really!!

k fine i shall accept the fact.. haix ya was nice to see u all af maf!! k i shall pei yang qing xu.. was so excited when i saw u guys.. haha esp jiayi was super mad lah.. was so fun trying to dance the hc mass dance.. haha laffing like mad n learning how to turn! haha n we were liek screaming when we sang the songs.. hahaa.. was so fun playing with jiayi.. ya when bong abandoned us n the guys dowan to play with us.. hahaa.. home reminded me of ny nat day!! haha n we did the 5 stars arising thg.. quite maluating buden nice memories! ya dang ni gu dan n xi shui chang liu reminded me of tchers day.. 407 performance n 404 hip hop.. peilee's echo.. 201 days.. ahhh so nice!! felt quite at home at hc.. haha.. so nice seeing the snrs all gather back at hc.. n the spirit is like so strong when u all do the hc dance n hc songs!!

i miss the fun times we had.. such nice memories! so great to see u all n spend such a wonderful nite.. haha worthwhile sacrificing my studies.. cant wait for promos to b over to go back to norm life! haha n sort of look forward to open hse.. though the track stuff is not quite settled.. miss the feeling of a big team.. haha the fun we had during cca display n trying to get sec 1s to join track.. all the crap stuff we do.. fooling ard n enjoying ourselves..

k it's much shorter den the prev entry but is the best i can do.. headache getting worse.. ya i really cherish this wonderful frenship betw us.. simply so special liek wad ms tan always says.. nv regretting joining track though i really wish to join dance.. haha watched some show on CNA which featured dance.. super nice!! oh well.. shall see how it goes.. maybe after A's can sign up for some dance courses..

went for baby cousin's 1 yr old bdae.. oh manx poor boy kept crying 2dae.. haha was liek super chaotic when abt 6 kids were playing in the living room.. the mothers were busy.. haha budden saw jiejie with the baby.. just felt it's such a xingfu kinda thg.. haha.. oh well the day till come! having someone who truly cares for u n b there with u.. k stop dreaming.. oh ya was sort of playing with one of the babies.. haha at least he's not a giant baby.. he was like going to slp.. den was playing with him.. so nice when he grab my finger.. ya n i carried him for a while.. so nice! haha must train up so that next tiem can carry jiejie's baby! cant wait to b ah yi~

super crappy n long entry.. keep having the feeling pple wont wanna read my blog

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:09:00 PM

Friday, September 17, 2004

glad i survived the day.. basically so waste time la.. but ya quite nice to see all of u in sch.. haha.. finally playes volley during pe.. but guess was quite a failure.. really miss the times we play volley in ny.. haha think ny girls are gd at sports! hehe.. miss the time jialaoshi taught us volley.. haha so that we do not simply now how to run/jump/throw wadeva but trackers also noe how to play ball games!! n the times 407 played during pe lesson.. peilee, phyllis, suz n all.. haha somehow we could play~ ya n i miss ny's pe!! where u can learn all the diff games.. haha n softball was much better!! don hafta b some kinda modified softball at least!! eh we really gotta form a team n go play.. haha n i better improve on my skills n reaction blehx.. but ya guess we're there to enjoy the game rather than to try to win sth..

hmm cant believe promos starting next week?!?! like sooo soon.. haha but that also means i will enjoy one day off! finally.. peace!! so much stuff to do.. haven really get down to proper revision.. haven catch up with tuts.. hmm.. n pw is like haunting me laaa.. sickening!! oh n baba is finally giving useful feedback.. oh well at least don hafta see him tmr~ ya don hafta rush here n there.. busy weekend.. tmr going to cousin's 1 yr old bdae.. haha the giant baby is finally 1 yr old.. ya n sunday sending bro off.. seriously i don even noe wad he has done in these 3 mths.. like nth meaninful n stuff.. haix while here i am don even haf the time

i miss macritchie.. trng or hanging ard.. just the place.. haix almost could go there 2dae.. miss the fun we had.. ms tan's trng.. bong, suz, jiayi.. beginning of this yr when we trained there tog.. the fun times we spent with jnrs.. ya n the playground with lotsa memories.. 201 days.. when i was still close to sokee n lixiang.. specially went down to macr to play with the swing.. haha ya n went there again during 77 days n scream like mad n all the fun.. qian bian wen da ti.. i really miss all the times when we have free time to spend such wonderful time with frens n stuff.. i miss ny lifestyle.. at least not that stressful.. still rmb how i stayed up late to rush thru lit sem paper.. liek wad i did for pw.. but that was like once a yr that kind.. ya the notecard sux!! haah gd thg onli sec 1 n 2 n i'm freed from lit.. i miss ny's environment.. so at home.. i miss the skirt where u can cross leg n sit in wadeva crap way u wan.. lolx~ move on gal!!

haix if onli i stay near sa.. den can hang in sch till quite late.. or hbf.. haha hbf is a nice place to study.. the songs they play are nice.. yep listening to kevin kern cd now.. ya which reminds me of ny's investiture!! ahhh i miss ny really alot!!! miss the dance lesson.. oh ya finally got the chance to sign up for dance course.. but ya was so stun to sign up alone.. as in like most pple go with frens to sign up.. den ya seems like pple ard me are not so into it.. haha hope i find some lost soul there like during 1st 3 mths.. n the prob is alot of pple sign up also.. sian den dance studio would b super packed like that time.. den will b so sian le.. well don think so much la..

hmm at least in sa.. got alot of activites that are not so studies orientated.. haha which makes life much better here.. n we are like exposed to more thgs.. think i'm getting emotional n long-winded again

oh ya made up my mind to go trim my hair.. haha.. it's getting browner lah baaaad.. ya n having bad hair day n stuff.. guess it's out of shape le.. haha.. ya maybe cut shorter den easier to manage.. since it's liek exam period.. ya shldnt bother too much abt looks le.. haha n i dunno when i can wear my contacts again.. hope it's not infection.. guess it's just too tired for the eyes.. dunno somehow i just cant stand myself in specs den wore contacts liek everyday for like 1+ week.. haha but at least now wear specs until v shuang le.. siao wan.. somemore no trng doesnt really bother me..

think i talk alot when i'm tired.. i really dunno y.. green is gd for the eye!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:14:00 PM

Thursday, September 16, 2004

woohoo it's great to b able to see my blog again!! simply miss it manx.. oh well think i'm like addicted to this.. lolx.. ya thanks alot for the conjugate pair.. hahaha super cute lah.. n gaigai must accept it la.. n seriously yk.. like wad gaigai say.. haha not everyone wanna b ard ur area k~ noe kampung is a great place budden i don mind not being able to enjoy the place..

oh well.. yepx supposed to b doing scv n report.. but ya.. haha cant help it must blog!! just now while bathing was thinking of sth.. lolx.. noe yest taitai they all were talking abt the uniform during dialogue.. seriously i don find anythg wrong with pulling the blouse to the waist.. haha den had the idea of coming up with this report.. do some kinda golden ratio thg to show her the length of blouse:skirt proportion.. seriously i don think wearing at the waist is that nice n neat in the sense.. seriously wad does she define as neat? haha if can prove that it satisfy the golden proportion.. which means appeal more to the eye.. as in by nature it looks better.. n seriously it's neat laaa.. so y cant we pull to the hip! haha seriously i'm quite mad over pw i think.. budden i dowan to do my own pw!! haha i really wanna prove the uniform laaa! anyone interested? hee

hmm shld i cut my hair??!! ahhh...

heard another story 2dae.. haha thot of some stuff again.. lolx.. ya sometimes it's better to just wait for someone better.. ya hopefully the person is worth the waiting.. than get tog with someone.. go thru all the stuff n another hurting experience? hmm really dunno actually.. guess it's also true to say we'll meet a few wrong person along the way b4 we meet the right one so that we'll learn to appreciate or dunno wad lah.. hmm so compli.. k aniwae.. thats liek whole big mess i don wish to think abt now.. haha..

seriously if u guys don let the girls noe u like her.. how u expect her to noe? haha n seriously some girls just don bother abt it if the guy doesnt do anythg.. but ya such a complex thg.. (x-iy) wadeva u're trying to do!!

oh ya baba's video 2dae.. hmm just reminded me of the simple lifestyle.. oh manx i really wish for the slow-paced life.. just enjoy the beauty of life! eh not all the studying n meeting datelines n wad crap pls.. thats not the life i wan n no beauty loh~ imagine if u don haf all these thgs pressing on u.. just enjoy the beauty of life.. read up on ur own n learn abt thgs ard u.. be with pple who have a true heart.. helping one another.. spending time with one another doing thgs u all like.. feel truly happy abt life.. ahhhhh thats like sooo nice laa.. esp when u have someone who really loves u n care for u.. n u feel great with him ard.. hmm~ k thinking too much again..

seriously i don like pw n i don think u all like it.. oh well.. sometimes it's not abt doing wad u like.. budden liking wad u do.. I LOVE PW.. oh manx i'm the greatest liar on earth le~ zi qi qi ren!! but ya haha supposed to love wad i'm doing...

i dowan to live with u all in wb~

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:17:00 PM

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

haha sth interesting for the nite..

from yk: girls are vvv complex.. (x + iy)

haha n i claim that since guys are also complex.. make them (x - iy) --> somehow guys are the minus.. hahaha

wow.. wad a conjugate pair~

k enuff for the nite.. hmm feeling quite happy now.. chatted with someone i didnt chat with for quite long alr.. realise i found another great fren after a long way.. lotsa ups n downs.. but yep a great frenship i guess.. =)

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:21:00 PM

blehx i cant even see my blog laa.. n apparently some pple can see n are flooding my tag.. hahaha.. feel so spas lah cannot even see anythg.. but ya thanks gaigai for copying the tags for me! lolx.. well replying the tags.. haha.. someone got so lousy typing skills lah.. i shall not bother abt tt.. haha.. k to the others..

yk: think u get the wrong idea le lah.. haha u sound like i'm so despo lidat.. lolx i'm not like searching or wadeva la.. n not like dying to b in love or sth.. haha.. it's just the kinda feeling.. aniwae thanks alot for the concern! don worry lah i'm not like veri affected by all these n not really going thru wad tough period or wad.. lolx.. n ya i'm not gonna end up at kampung!! n for frens n stuff.. i'm alright n i noe i have lotsa frens who care for me.. heex.. (thanks pork for the concern! so sweet u still rmb abt me doing pw n all) anw, it's like sometimes just thinking abt thgs wad..like get emotional.. it's just diff.. haha dunno how to explain to u.. hmm.. oh ya.. n the him* is still an imaginary person lah.. (so complex lol) haha the person have yet to come into my life.. k thats in case u dunno~ haha wont even bother to go look for the person or wad.. ya n i'm like still surviving w/o like a special guy.. u don see me like everyday super depressed abt life.. whole day thinking abt the past n wad stuff.. yepx.. n weird of u to say those stuff abt guys anw.. hahaha.. but seriously guys are troublesome creature.. lolx~ seriously i don think i will ever understand wad they are trying to do.. don bother also cuz sometimes they just seems so loser.. ya i got HIGH expectations.. n i'm not gonna lower my expectations just to accommodate some loser.. i don care if u got high ego, afraid of rejection or wad crap lah.. but ya just gotta say too bad guys! eh ya not referring to u or anythg.. as in guys in general.. k lah quite a wrong place to write all these budden just come to my mind..

pork: haha ur tag remind me of this.. love is blind.. lolx~

oh ya i cant check my yahoo mail also.. siannn.. dunno wad crap has happened to my com while doing baba's hw again??!! sickening lah always do his stuff comp will screw up one.. seriously his assignments are not meant to b done~ lolx k lah simply coincidence budden just push the blame to him.. not like i'm bothered with him

hmm wad abt 2dae? wasted the chinese break again arrrrghx.. oh ya open hse.. hmm seriously just thot abt it.. how come track got so little pple.. even fitness got so many pple lah.. lolx.. just compare the ex-co.. ya n to think of it i was also conned n almost joined fitness.. hahaa.. seriously to think abt it.. i noe track cant attract like many pple.. so wad izzit abt fitness that can attract so many pple??!! blehx.. or izzit just lost ram of S12? (sorry gaigai) even wz complains tt is pathetic.. hmm can someone pls enlighten me?!!

dialogue session is crap lah.. not exactly v effective i think.. haha don even dare to go up n talk abt the uniform lah.. sickening.. kena caught by dp b4 n my hair is getting more brown.. hmm not that daring.. seriously how many will go pull their blouse to the waist n feel gd in it? so disgusting lah seriously.. somemore the skirt is liek so freaking out of shape.. n wads so wrong abt having our blouse pulled to the hips.. k lah lower den hips.. budden does it really look that untidy?!! no loh.. w/o elastics pple will just pull out the blouse n it looks much much worse.. hmm wadeva lah~

n after the dialogue session.. hmm i think AVA pple are quite wei da lah.. haha poor kazua always stay until so late.. but nv heard a single grumble n stuff.. for yk.. haha dunno wad u doing in ava also.. onli rmb seeing u carrying thgs abt? hee paiseh

long entry again.. am i long-winded?? =( oh ya.. shld i cut my hair?? haix always cannot make up my mind

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:40:00 PM

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

listening to yi ren yi ban.. suddenly reminded me of the stuff again.. ya actually on the way home.. suddenly just missed the feeling of lying on someone's shoulder n rest.. oh well hafta say my bro is not a gd choice~ haha not being fussy.. ya aniwae.. hmm talked to vicki in the cafe just now.. really admire her ability to make gd use of her time.. really get down to work while waiting for him.. hmm n definitely it was sweeeet~

saw korkor looking thru stuff in my fone.. was just wondering.. y did i still have that special ringtone for him.. some stuff u're just so used to it.. budden it's over.. get out of the habit.. thgs are different now.. i shldnt even b thinking abt all these.. but guess it's really sth in me.. i noe all these are the past.. it's no longer the same n it will nv b the same again.. just gotta look forward.. even though i don see anythg ahead of me..

i noe i wont have him coming into my life soon.. cuz i'm not even prepared at all.. i can feel that emptiness in me again.. frens can let me forget abt it.. but it doesnt help to get this out of me.. maybe my life is getting less chong1 shi2.. making me have all these kinda feeling? really dunno.. just take it the way i think it is.. really dunno if it's bcos i haven gotten over with the past.. wadeva it is.. i really dunno n i dowan to think much abt it.. i miss the hugs.. the care.. the 'love'.. but guess the onli thg i can do is to bring this forward to pple ard me.. n in turn feel better? dunno.. late at nite.. supposed to b slping but suddenly all the thots just come to my mind.. in this cold room.. i'm glad i have music~ at least not that empty.. i just cant get off the com.. i need to chat with someone.. or maybe even just post an entry it's gd enuff.. i really dunno if this is loneliness.. guess it's just sth missing in me..

at least i have my tigger n pooh.. who are always there with me.. it's just great hugging the pooh.. thats the 2nd best choice alr i guess.. n tigger is like this nice little baby.. guess it's true like wad u all said.. i'm a child at heart.. guess i really need to get out of hse n sch to do sth that will fill up my life.. enjoy the slower pace of life.. enjoy the beauty of the thgs ard me.. someone i can feel that there will b someone who will b there with me to enjoy all these.. who will really bring that smile to my heart.. even as now i'm thinking of all these.. i can feel it..

simply love those sunflowers outside.. yepx cant go n take a look at them.. but they always stay in my mind.. simply so beautiful.. big bright yellow sunflowers~ ya hopefully mummy will get them planted soon.. but ya guess she'll just treat it as some casual remark n don think i'm serious abt it.. well doesnt really matter.. think i will treasure them more this way =)

haha enjoying the nite now.. n hopefully i wont turn a zombie tmr morn~ lolx.. ya hope i can wake up all fresh n prepared for the new day.. lotsa stuff happening tmr.. yep guess all of them will turn out well.. continue my emotional nite listening to 933 story.. heex

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:54:00 PM

ahhhh pork stop flooding my tagboard lah!! n stop haunting me... ahhh don mention abt my shang xin shi lah! feeling super bad abt it... arghx seriously i cant get that horrible moment out of my mind lah!! jiu ming ahhhh.. eh budden i scared i chi1 zai1 will make me weaker lehx.. lolx.. k lah ahhh i'm still feeling super bad abt it laaa.. hmm n don think treating u is considered a gd deed lehx.. make u even more chan2 zui3 later become fat pig le lah!! hahaha~ u also rest well lah.. if not how u take care of ur porkfie, epoxy n wadeva lah.. hahaha dunno how to spell lah.. next time name ur hai zi simpler names can.. oh ya.. n stop haunting me with stuff the stoopid baba said laaa.. more n more cannot stand him arghx.. eh i reflect also not because of him!! bhb.. none of his business laaaa.. like the camp so much go sign on in army lah.. come torture us for wad~ faster go reservice n don come back!!!

hmm maybe we shld have a ai1 dao4 hui4 for the poor _ _ _ _ _. ahhhh i dowan to mention the thg lah really veri er xin.. freak.. hope it will rest in peace lah...

k for those who still got no idea after wad i've said n wad pork kindly stated in the tag.. ahhhh pls dont come n ask me wad happened cuz i dowan to rmb that incident!!! haha k lah i shall mian4 dui4 xian4 shi2.. aiyox syllabus b feels so chinese 2dae~ oh well.. i will reflect n hui2 gai3 wan.. ahhhh also bu4 xiao3 xin1 wan wadx.. super sad laaaa

k lah enuff of it i guess.. hmm guess other den this big thg that happened.. nth much 2dae.. ahhhh charmaine got the bottle laaa!!! haha realise it's dark red.. n not exactly maroon~ i wan that bottle!!!

hmm ya whoever is broomstick lah.. hema?? haha..

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:06:00 PM

Monday, September 13, 2004

wahahaha feeling so great cuz I SOLVED ONE FM PROBLEM! hahaha okie lah after so long nv do tuts le.. hmm just feel sooooo great when i could solve it! it's like i can feel that i will get the ans.. n ya it took a long while to get it.. but it's all worth it! woohoo~

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:58:00 PM

yeah i survived the day! arent u proud of me? k lah partly thanks to the pink panadol which saved me from all the pain.. wahaha k cut the crap.. oh well.. stoopid vectors test just hope can pass.. ya other den that.. haha tuts was like copying ans onli.. ahhh must get down to work manx.. haha actually hols was nice.. ahh i miss the times going to sch in stickman fbt n slippers! haha super shuang laaa.. n some smart baba person wan us to button up early in the morn den can take off after that if we want.. wadeva laaa.. haix too tired to talk abt him cuz he simply got toooo much stuff for us to complain abt..

haha i found out that the shoulder ache n neck ache n maybe back ache is all due to the com!! haha still thot the design was gd.. den realise it strains the neck.. doesnt feel liek lehx.. hmm.. but ya.. ahhhh i dowan to suffer from wadeva crap prob hahahaa.. oh well..

hmm i'm stuck here chatting again.. just cant help it laaa.. just sooo tired of sch manx.. think the break was great.. ya n maybe let me study in peace laa.. but thanks alot for all the support pple!

time flies when u're online!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:30:00 PM

Sunday, September 12, 2004

alright i shall get my life in place n stop complaining.. haha.. no more negative crap le lah.. i'll b strong again!! hmm 1st gotta work on self-discipline.. wahahaha.. no more late nites! must have enuff rest cuz think i'm liek quite weak.. somehow~ haha someone kindly take care of me? oh well ya i have angels in my life who will.. hahahaha.. but ya noe there's still abit of a diff lah.. k enuff of crap.. yep must rest well.. haha n i think i'm getting unhealthy cuz nv exercise!! haha onli form of exercise is shoppin lah.. which is quite pathetic haha~ hmm ya.. cant b lazy girl! oh well must drink alot of water too!!! ahh pple pls help me look out for my dream bottle.. bleh.. k lah it's just tt adidas bottle.. noe that standard design everyone is using.. the small one.. the maroon colour! ya maroon n not red.. no stripe or wad crap.. ahhhhh the bottle seems to have disappeared.. pls inform me if u see it k?! hmm k think now can get to studies le.. ya really need to plan my time properly.. do my tuts n make sure i noe the current chaps.. haha b4 i really can die.. n somehow find time to study? hahaa.. woohoo gotta start a day fresh tmr! haha n really do all the last minute crap le.. start it right n have a great day! heh look forward to better entries!

thanks alot my dearest angel disguised as housekeeper! lol.. love ya so much! u nv fail to give me that emotional support! rock on girl~

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:29:00 PM

ahhhh total screwed up.. tried too hard i guess.. having cramp like nobody's business

well wasted the entire day 2dae.. like again.. wad crap.. ya n was like freaking cold cuz some smart soul forgot to bring jacket.. sian feeling so sick.. n whole aft was just rotting ard.. hmm finding pleasure in watching little children bowl? gotta say that was sth really nice.. haha they were like so cute n simply wanna 'bowl'.. carry the ball there.. ya as in really hugging the ball.. den roll it on the floor.. hitting the side (no drain) n rebound back hitting the pins.. haha n that nice smile on her face when she hit like few more pins..

ahhh i shall not talk abt wad i did this afternoon.. just feel that i've like sort of screwed up my life these few days.. ahhh stop all the silly crap shit laaa.. really dunno wad i'm doing.. wad i'm trying to do.. oh well.. think i had enuff of pms shit.. the idea of tmr is scary.. didnt do alot of thgs.. hmm guess i forgot wads tutorial??! n ya test? hmm.. wad am i supposed to do in sch tmr??! n don think i'll b doing anythg 2nite.. gotta slp early.. the doc claims that im not anemic(or wadeva crap lah).. but ya had this really bad blackout.. felt like puking.. ear was like blocked or dunno wad.. i had enuff of all these laaa

dowan to go to sch tmr... haix

oh well wanted to train tmr but see the state i'm in.. think can just forget the whole crap abt it..

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:23:00 PM

Saturday, September 11, 2004

ahhhh my ankle is hurting for no gd reason.. dunno if it's cuz of the nite w/o socks.. or ya just some cranky thg again.. lower back giving me prob also.. n shoulder aching really badly.. hmm dunno wads wrong with all the crap.. but ya had this like self-massage last nite.. haha using up the tube of that shen qi thg.. ya it proved to b effective.. oh well.. think i'm like getting more n more pampered n noe how to enjoy life.. n one day jiejie will bring me to some place in orchard for shoulder massage.. wahahahaha~ oh well we are so similar also have the same prob.. n i wanna go pedicure! simply cant stand my toes.. n ya just wanna pamper myself! i don careeeeee

walked alot 2dae.. thanks to the ankle guard! my ankle sort of survived.. lolx.. budden sacrifice my heel to wear a nicer slippers~ ahhh so now my feet hurts as well.. hmm maybe can try some kinda self-invented feet massage later~ think really need to wear those kinda fluffy slippers at home to keep my feet warm.. haha really wonder if all those pains here n there are due to pms~ oh well dont think so much laaa..

bot this supposedly v nice pants.. was quite a gd deal.. haix but mummy's comment was quite bad made me like 1/2 siannn.. bleh guess this entry is damn dead laaa.. oh well.. think i'm getting more n more fair laaa.. freak.. oh well i can go swimming soon!!! bongggg~ when u free to go swimming??!! any time from tues onwards.. so exciting!! ya n 2dae i saw this super nice nike swim suit laaa.. haha i'm convinced that nike got nice swimsuit.. lolx.. budden nvm lah hume park anythg will do~

gonna get back to real lessons on monday.. got this vector test that i completely forgotten abt it until someone mentioned it on thurs or sth.. but wads the pt still haven touch the freaking chap that i dun even noe wad lpw taught.. hmm basically i forgot all abt tuts~ crap.. n monday is the all-6-tutorials day.. haha which means 3 period break again but ya i will just slack again so yep cant count on monday~ hmm going out tmr again.. freak man.. think i really treat it as hols le..

just so tired after the day.. feeling quite sick these days.. keep having the dizzy spell? woohoo pls don let me faint somewhere manx~ think i'm just floating ard again..

hmm life needs a direction.. but where's my life heading to...

------k pls ignore this entry-----

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:40:00 PM

Friday, September 10, 2004

so long nv blog le.. time flies man.. it's like friday already?!! went back sch like 4 out of the 5 days.. felt like some kinda norm sch day actually.. hmm din really study much this hols.. haix.. but at least get thgs started le.. yep went to buy this guide book for chem.. haha after hearing so much from jess.. cant resist.. lolx.. oh well hope it's gd! shall not b too tempted to get the sort of tys thg..

yep aniwae.. feel like going nike to try that sandals.. wonder if i can get cheap deal anywhere.. well maybe try it out 1st.. think i'm more n more into shopping.. haix must control abit.. haha but guess now i'm onli into v nice n budget stuff.. getting thgs i may need soon.. guess some thgs just hafta wait.. haha cant wait for promos to b over!! oh well.. feel like getting the adidas bottle!! guess thats the onli bottle that i really like for so long.. maybe sometimes we shld just not b too bother abt others~ ya the bottle is liek so common n so many of my snrs using.. but well.. heck lah.. also no trng le.. n i really need one of those bottle so that i'll drink more water!! haha k lah seems no connection budden somehow it's just lidat.. feeling so dehydrated these few days laaa..

not making SENSE 2dae.. heard from jess that onli 1 person turned up.. n he was super unhappy.. k lah i shall not b evil.. but let him noe how uSeFuL his lessons are~

WZ! i managed to change the pic! haha less pinkie le! hmm n now i can use any colours le!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:32:00 PM

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

lalaaaala~ so glad that 2dae turned out to b a great day! haha was having a really bad morning.. wake up just dowan to go sch.. sickening la.. thinking of the heavy traffic.. manual photocopying machine.. don even noe wad ms chan is teaching.. freeezing dry ava.. just soooo boring.. but well.. haix after much thinking still went to sch.. seriously felt so lousy the entire morn.. think just showed u all black face n was quite grumpy.. sorry gals~ hmm n ya my pw grp.. was super attitude i think.. just another day of pms.. ya n now i realise the pain of travelling soooo long to sch just for this pathetic short lesson which is like even shorter den ur travelling time.. crap.. n my receiver is getting siao le.. hmm thinking if i shld bring back to the shop.. siannn..

k aniwae.. haha think i've been complainig abt this n that.. haix feel so bad but i just cant help it.. get so easy irritated.. but well.. enuff of all that.. hahaha.. n my stoopid story of how my mood changed...

somehow i ended up in eunos.. wahaha thats like another stun act.. slpt on 93 from hbf.. cuz it was just sooo shuang.. ya den while i was approaching macritchie bstop i woke up.. hmm ya reaching.. n the next moment i realise i passed the stop alr! ahhh subconsciously fell aslp again.. n ya the next b stop is like so far.. so decided to stay on the bus.. n nowhere convenient to alight so ended up in eunos~ hahaha but well.. decided to go meet BONGIEE!! nai niang u simply made my day! hahaha.. had a great time chatting with u at airport.. budden seriously i think we're making alot of noise.. hee.. the place is soooo quiet.. den 2 girls there making so much comments.. hahaha.. but it was really such a great time!! hahaha ya v soon we'll b able to hang ard hume park again~

just as i thot i can finally get down to study.. haix there's sickening pw!! shall not think too much i guess.. yep just follow my heart n study 1st laaa.. hahaha.. i must go somewhere nice to study tmr! either in my cotton pants or track pants.. wahahaha~ oh manx im really so hyper after just now la.. haha..

and I'M GETTING FATTER!! 47kg on my scale.. think with the cheem thg in sch it will b like 48? ooooh~ really need to go shopping laaa.. ya n i need to train!

girl, you gotta have attitude
7:56:00 PM

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