Born into attitude
Asleep at the wheel
Throw all your bullets in the fire
And run like hell
What is the fever?
What ever happened to sweat?

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

heard abt another mrt accident 2dae.. haix it's so scary lah!! saw the news reporting abt the bt batok wan.. just had some weird feelings.. hmm pple pls take gd care of urself kx.. n stand super far away from the mrt track lah.. k lah dats abit spas.. dunno just sooo scary lah.. listening to 933 n it just struck me so suddenly.. n the hse feel so empty.. sian.. just hate this feeling.. ahhh n i just keep staying online..

sorry that i noe abt this.. but ya if u're reading this.. just wanna tell u that indeed life is precious.. hope u're alright now.. dunno exactly what u're going thru.. but yep just wan u to noe that even though u get hurt.. don hurt pple ard u.. since u noe how the pain feels like.. don make others feel that way too..

girl, you gotta have attitude
7:35:00 PM

haha think i gonna write long story again.. really dunno who's reading my blog.. guess this is more or less for myself to keep track of my life~

went to gillman for lunch 2dae.. reminded me of the 77 days.. miss the fun times we had tog.. even geri was saying she missed those days.. think we simply had lotsa fun.. miss the times when we disturb one another.. all the laffing n screaming.. going to eat ice cream.. the 2nd thg that came to my mind when i saw the ice cream shop at hbf was our ice cream outing.. though we nv really went to eat ice cream.. budden ya the idea is there~ haha..

actually alot of reflections 2dae to share.. budden just too tired i think.. used too much brain juices.. haha some other day ba.. since someone said i blog ALOT~ blehx

cant wait for promos to b over.. den can hang out with all the pple again.. k think we downgrade to not-so-witty family.. seriously pple out there so ultra witty n we're just nth.. ya aniwae.. i wanna go back ny lah!!!! haix cant get to see trackers.. n think got 407 lunch or sth dunno.. siannn.. really miss u all.. must go out tog after promos!

realise i cannot chat n blog at the same time.. haha not effective.. k shall try another time.. cya pple.. n rmb to take care kx.. for the sake of urself n everyone ard u who care for u..

girl, you gotta have attitude
7:35:00 PM

Monday, August 30, 2004

hahha getting the hang of blogging again.. gaigai: guess our blogs have became a chatroom for us.. lolx.. hmm sorry just now didnt go gym.. like sort of promise u i'll go den in the end nv even pop by.. was like going ard getting snrs to sign on the cards.. so last minute la.. haha kk next time don do this kinda last minute thg le.. my dad forgot i wanna going back late 2dae.. den i also forget to remind him.. den so happen he came earlier.. blehx.. den as i was walking towards gym he called laaa.. hahaha paiseh a bit stoopid story i noe.. sian lah.. telling the team to train den i nv go n train.. haha.. feel so bad lah.. somemore i brot all the thgs le.. oh ya actually i went gym.. hahah but think u went to change or sth~ saw the guys so enthu running the treadmill lolx.. kk i make sure i go next monday k? hahaha.. n thanks ALOT for the sms.. so helpful loh.. hahah

sth i heard on the tv just now.. haha n think pork said to yijun b4.. if u're not looking at me how u noe i'm looking at u~ (translated somehow sounds weird..hahaa) are u like somehow searching for the person?

k enuff of all that.. hahah pple keep talking to me abt all these laaa.. just dunno y.. hmm n ya don try to deduce anythg silly.. looking forward to the little break.. tmr will b a long day again.. but well at least not some boring story telling time or stoning tutorial session.. lolx.. hmm but at the rate i'm going think will die laaa.. k aniwae.. yepx i really need to get down to work!! keep making so much noise but no action.. blehx.. hmm cant go back ny tmr.. haix.. like so long nv go back le!! bot a card for ms tan budden don think can get u guys to write in it n stuff.. quite spas laa.. n i suddenly wanna go back see ms yong.. hahaha.. guess her baby is few mths old le.. must b this xingfu de mama now~ guess ny really have veri dedicated tchers.. n some can really teach v well.. guess mrs lee is such a great EL tcher.. right bong?! all the remedials n from all the failing n goner eng to now~ haha thats if u're reading~ n esp ms tan who's so dedicated to the track team..

aniwae think the tchers we get are not that bad also.. although i'm feeling worse abt baba.. from positive to neutral to now negative le lah... he's just taking the wrong approach i think.. aniwae pork.. hahah as for ur sis.. hmm guess we shldnt compare her with ms chan.. haha unfair comparison.. actually she isnt that bad afterall.. bit naggy.. bit slack.. veri discouraging.. hahah budden overall quite gd le lah.. yep n considering rest of the tchers we get are really soooo nice!! haha v lucky le~

oh well.. hope everyone will have a gd time tmr.. hahah

i noe my entries are getting long n boring.. blehx

girl, you gotta have attitude
7:49:00 PM

Sunday, August 29, 2004

cant concentrate that well actually.. ya supposed to b studying right now.. guess there's just this sth on my mind~ not exactly troubled by it.. but yepx just distracted i think.. think it just comes at the wrong time.. just hope it gets better soon..

feeling so lazy..

hmm n i realise more n more pple are troubled/disturbed by this? quite a tiring thg~

think i'm getting tired after all the hyperness just now.. haha..

cant believe pms is approaching sooon.. ya like soooo soon.. time flies!! really

yep take care peeps hahah

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:37:00 PM

hahahah it's so nice chatting with gaigai now~ lolx.. haven really chat with u these days.. nv noe we're stuck in the same prob! wahahaha.. guess it's true that u're nv alone! haha cuz someone out there will b feeling the same way as u too~ hmm guess we gotta wait till after promos den go out n haf a gd talking time tog.. wahahah

guess this whole thg is so compli.. gotta handle it well.. yepx i noe u can do it dear! n rmb i'm always here! wahahaha k lah think we're just too high now.. hmm gotta get down to work manx.. promos is so near n i'm still quite lag.. n we hafta work hard n prove baba wrong!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:53:00 AM

Saturday, August 28, 2004

haha realise i haven blog for some days le.. hmm time flies man.. aniwae.. din slp on thurs nite~ cant imagine i'm doing pw from thurs nite until fri morn.. was quite awake just that it feels like my mind is just floating ard.. n it just felt like a long thurs.. haha as though its all in a day.. aniwae.. really gotta thank all the dearies who were there with me! yijun n huiting for staying up with me! haha the noble dans.. w/o ur encouragement n help i wouldnt b here still doing the sickening thg.. yep n to jess.. thanks for being there with me.. hmm she wont b reading this also~ haha..

slpt too much last nite.. from 8.30 to 1pm 2dae.. hahah.. think i really need to get some fresh air outside.. lolx.. gone thru quite a bit of stuff these few days.. haha feelings have changed also.. just seems so sudden dunno y also.. yepx but well all i hafta say is that it's a gd change! haha.. is that some prayer being answered or wad i really dunno.. but shant b too bothered abt it.. just follow my heart n see how it goes~ aniwae for now.. i'm really glad i've found a special fren in my life.. loving me, caring for me, taking care of me n all.. but she'll just b this special galfren of mine~ lolx like wad wz said.. haha i'm straight lah! it's just sooo sweet having a great galfren.. guess just sth i cant get from guys.. haha n ya i will forget abt finding a gay fren lolx~ it's a cool theory actually.. can get really close to a guy n not get into a bgr.. simply cuz the guy is a gay.. hahaah really fascinated by the idea..

sth from a guy's nick.. the greatest hesitance of a man is to tell someone i love u.. haha how true izzit onli the guys noe i guess.. hmm sometimes the girl just dunno u like her.. budden again don try too hard.. noe it's hard on u guys.. wanna b with the girl but on the other hand fear rejection.. just try to noe the girl better n noe wad she wans.. guess sometimes she just enjoys ur accompany (if she does) but not wanting to go further? really dunno.. depends on the girl.. haha guess thats all i hafta say.. hope it helps~ to any girl going thru all these: if u need someone i will b there to listen to u though i may not b able to help.. to guys: hmm don think i understand n can help also.. just follow ur heart but use ur brain too!

sometimes u can help others but not urself.. but guess thats the reason y we need frens..

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:10:00 PM

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

yep pple.. i shall update my blog to keep track of my progress lol.. oh well i just realise the layout is quite pinkie n small.. but well bear with it k cuz don think i gonna spend time doing it.. n hard to find this sort of layout when u can scroll the indiv section..

aniwae.. reflections for the day.. hahah been feeling quite weak.. mentally emotionally n physically.. had fm tests yest n 2dae.. guess thats the worst maths test ever.. bet i fail both cuz the marks for the pathetic parts i attempted is like will barely give me a few marks.. almost an empty script.. haix but basically it's just copying the ans n scribbling some crap to fill up abit.. aniwae its all over.. just gotta work hard for promos.. n wads the worst thg was that i had super intense headache during both the papers.. guess it's cuz i was really lack of slp + not prepared for paper leading to lotsa stress.. n maybe surroundings.. haha ava is a bad place.. so cold n dry~ but well ya actually it's my own fault so yep i will work harder!!

trng was quite bad.. didnt wanna go for trng but well still hafta go.. wasnt feeling well.. den during the dunno strengthening of wadeva workout.. felt really so sick.. guess i really need rest.. hate the headache n giddy feeling.. n worse when both comes tog.. think i really hafta manage my time well.. find time to relax myself n also to work hard! yep really grateful that i'm starting to get down to work.. cant b too rash also.. just glad that i'm understanding physics again n got involved in tuts.. haha felt great asking all the qns.. mr chan is such a nice tcher! haha like wad jess feels also.. really admire how physics tcher noe all the concept so well.. n always have the patience to explain to students no matter how many times we ask them a simple thg.. n the best thg is when the students say some weirdo alien stuff somehow the tcher understands! wahahaha~ yep i shall work hard!!

k warning its gonna b a long entry!! haha aniwae yep mental.. physical.. now it's emotional again.. haha guess i'm always troubled with emotional stuff.. it's a FACT that i am emotionally weak.. yepx accept it.. no intention to try to change it.. budden will b more aware of it.. don let myself fall into the big trap.. haha suddenly just felt that it's really great to have a guy grabbing ur hand.. somehow it seems liek a sense of security even though it's just a simple thg with no hidden meaning at all.. haha guess it's just being too sensitive n thinking too much~ but ya who cares.. i'm free to express wad i feels.. though i think it's too long-winded for u pple.. haha i think i'm also long-winded budden noooo i'm not gonna b like baba!! u guys can choose not to read my blog.. but like we can choose to close our ears n don listen to him.. *shuddup lah* really nice when our class is lively n come up with some stoopid crap.. applying wad we learn from lessons in an interesting way! haha talk to the wall~

yep aniwae think i'm feeling much better.. just gotta get my life sorted out.. manage my time well.. be more responsible about my actions n duties.. but on the other hand try to share some responsibilities.. and i still believe one day i'll find the shoulder to lean on when i'm just too tired! haha sorry gals if i keep leaning on ur shoulder~

someone who needs LOTSA love.. but i'm not gonna demand that from U =) and i wan all of u to rmb that somewhere out there.. u still have me who loves u!! take good care of urself plsssss...

PS: quick relief for headache.. chocolate n 100 plus!! k don take both at the same time pls.. but ya see which one is available n which appeals to u! feel free to provide me with more suggestions =) but then again all of u out there pls rest well n not hafta depend on this stoopid quick relief heex

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:11:00 PM

Monday, August 23, 2004

hmm guess i haven updated for v long n dunno if u pple have lost touch with my blog.. yep aniwae got this from jieyun's blog.. thot it's a nice reminder for everyone here.. haha edited abit of the more private stuff~

pastor spoke about leadership and how everyone of us should rise up to be a leader. he said leadership is not solely about the title. being a leader = being a servant. and it's impossible to serve and not want to be a leader. that's the highest form of pride. hahaz. we need to take a balance of both :) to be a leader, we have to have a good reputation. hahaz* that's the first and foremost. anyways, a good reputation comprises of a responsible private and public life. then pastor went on to say that a leader has to be full of the Holy Spirit! amEn! someone who displays the fruits of the spirit, slow to anger, love, peace, long suffering, gentleness... someone who cannot tolerate the sins of others but will always forgive them and help them again and again... and a leader has to have the POWER of God!!! someone who's close to God and ministers not just out of their own knowledge, but ministers the heart of God into the lives of others. wow* inspired again* sometimes i tend to forget that it's more important to minister the heart of God than to just tell of what you know. wow* final point!!! a leader has gotta have WISDOM!!! common sense. common sense is very uncommon. hahaz* tt's what pastor said. some people just.... like praying aloud in the bus and then getting scolded by someone for it. tt's no common sense. reading the bible during lessons and then getting a thrashing from the teacher later on. tt's no common sense either. hahaz. yEpS. tt's the general structure of yesterday's message. n_n what impacted me most was that a leader has gotta be among his followers first, understand and mix around with them first before he can be promoted to be a leader. he's gotta be a person that is already recognised as a leader, that's already respected by the people around him. yeps. it's never the talent. it's the character that will make a leader worth following. am i one? still improving :)

yep aniwae.. to everyone reading this entry whether u've attain a leadership post or just a member in ur CCA.. u can make a difference! hahaa i noe this sounds v much like SA's scripture reading n prayer.. budden again.. guess u pple can do all the selective reading by now =) jiayou pple!

and yes i hafta get my private life in place n work on the public life!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:42:00 PM

Sunday, August 22, 2004

yeah i shall update my blog b4 it becomes a dead blog.. hahah.. was watching national day rally just now.. cant believe i sat in front of the tv for so long lah!! almost fell aslp budden still endured the super ultra long speech.. great achievement manx! n yes.. perseverance!!! BAhahahah

yep aniwae.. feeling quite inspired but guess will die off soon.. shall study hard! yes i can study also!!! n aniwae guess i gotta train hard for track next yr.. haha maybe for badminton also.. for the interhse games.. wahahah thats crap lah so long later.. yepx aniwae i don even haf a racket!! blehx.. tues will b the last track trng.. hope we have a gd time during trng manx..

n guess wad i'm waiting for track events to start now.. haix olympics is so addictive lah!! no wonder some guys didnt study for ct the other time.. k crap.. ya aniwae.. guess now i really need to plan my time wisely.. rest well.. n do my stuff.. quite worried abt how i'm gonna handle promos man.. yep aniwae guess i'm feeling better abt thgs ard me.. n i gonna get my life in place! hmm more or less settled the emotional aspects.. so now gotta sort of my study plans properly

aniwae.. just sth to think abt.. in ur mind u haf ur dream guy/gal.. in reality u wish u can find him/her.. but in actual fact does the person even exist? so wad if he/she does? will u really get to meet him/her? are our expectations just too high? sometimes i really dunno wad i really wan.. hmm just because he's not the sort of ideal dream guy u're not considering him? maybe he's just meant to be a really good fren.. hmm cant everythg just b simpler.. well guess i'm not gonna think too much abt all these.. haha shall enjoy some short crush here n there.. n pray hard i wont b too upset thinking abt stuff related to r'ship.. no more screwed up cases at least from now till promos.. no more pms crap cases.. haha.. shall treat all my frens well n cherish them.. i miss the hUgs~

ya btw my special someone aka him* aka wadeva term i ever use.. is NON-existance at the moment.. i'm not attached nobody is jioing me.. haha single but not sure if i'm available.. ya n guess sometimes i just mix up all my special terms.. oh well maybe shall have a proper definition for them.. lolx.. but i sort of found quite a special n sweet GALfren! hahaha~

girl, you gotta have attitude
11:29:00 PM

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

lalalaaa~ 2dae is colours day! haha lecture #1 shall b on colours!! blehx

hmm was just decorating sth.. den the idea of using colour pencils just flashed across my mind.. haha sth we haven use for a long time.. prob onli jiayi uses it.. hahaha k thats if she's still using it.. tried to like use differnent colour for different alphabets.. realise that my colour pencils have actually quite limited colours.. there are alot of different shades.. but when we look at a simpler picture of it.. the basic colours are onli that few.. why do we have to complicate matters.. hmm to impress pple? to think of it.. i was quite impressed with the wide range of colours when i was young.. hahah.. but well i'm tired of all the complicated thgs..

hmm my colour pencils are like short n quite old.. but well it can still produce the colour n serve its purpose! hahah no matter how old sth is.. it's nv useless! guess i'm too stone to explain all the stuff properly.. hmm ya but sort of made my pt.. n yes try to understand k? though sometimes it seems like there's no link..

i just wan my world to be filled with beautiful colours.. the true beauty that can be felt by the heart.. the colour of love, of smile, of laughter, of strength.. and maybe a little of sorrow, disappointment and tears.. to bring out the true beauty of life~

girl, you gotta have attitude
5:19:00 PM

Monday, August 09, 2004

hey pple i've posted some pics here.. hahah yah finally~ yepx if u want to get the original pic, can click on the pic and d/l from there.. if not can come n ask me for the pics.. and i shld get down to work!!!

happy national day!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
4:31:00 PM

Saturday, August 07, 2004

Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:58:00 PM

oh ya from gaigai's blog.. haha we played this more den 120-pple musical chair yest.. was quite a nice experience.. haha sch identity.. ya n lin jue jie came!! hmm but no ah ma song.. well not so crazy abt him also.. y syz nv come back?!?!

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:44:00 PM

lalalala~ i'm supposed to b doing this stoopid gp essay.. n guess wad pork came to tell me gaigai also dowan to do.. haha now i also dowan to do le.. hmm maybe later ba.. hahaha.. well aniwae.. gotta thank everyone who had been so sweet n guess always so sweet~ hehx.. thanks for all the care during those days.. hahahah n the help with gp essay last nite.. end up also nv do.. so dui bu qi all of u all.. so late le still try to help me..

n brother thanks alot ar.. haha wads with the matchmaking thg that i nv noe abt.. hahaha nainiang telling me now farni lah.. u're a lousy promoter! hahaha.. n i don need a guy that badly lah.. lolx

ya aniwae.. haha 2dae was liek this quite screwed up day.. screwed up my sort of speech this morn but gd thg someone saved me.. n ya the stoopid 2+ hr bus trip home.. ya thats like the joke of the day.. lazy to type here.. hmm really interested can ask me.. ahhaha..

oh well.. yest was quite a nice day.. finally can take a break from sch.. went town.. haha saw alot of pple lah.. ny, ex-ny, sa.. wah really can see alot of stickman shirt ard.. haha den made me so sensitive to it.. yepx n saw jnrs.. n so excited when i saw brother at ps den suz at taka.. hahaha.. somehow just felt that u're there den look there that kinda feeling.. so nice~ oh n i found this veri cool place.. some top level of isetan orchard.. haha sony gallery.. den there's this ps2 game.. olympics 2004.. hahahaha super fun loh.. n the hurdles rox!~ hehx.. other den the 1st hurdle i can cross the rest super nicely.. den they will show the video of the side view n front few.. really super nice technique lah.. hahahaha.. was like quite siao over that game.. much better den summer games.. lolx

yepx this few days really gotta get down to study n catch up with work.. oh well shall stop crapping.. hmm this entry is so no meaning.. nvm lah haha

girl, you gotta have attitude
8:18:00 PM

Tuesday, August 03, 2004

it's the time again.. haix feeling so sian abt thgs again.. guess i simply cant help it.. n i wont do anythg to make myself feel better.. i just wanna let all these out of me.. cant get down to work again.. thinking of weird thgs again.. sianed talked to him last nite.. as usual he's like v sian.. felt that at least i've got a life n not feeling so sian abt everythg.. but then again.. am i just lying to myself.. guess he really left this veri great impact in me.. sometimes it felt like it's a nightmare.. it's just so scary.. i've lost all the gd feelings for him actually.. the onli thg i cant get over with is just the feeling of it.. of having someone u can depend on.. but well maybe he wasnt even someone i can depend on.. ya more of just someone who will accompany u n spend time with u..

haix guess i'll just stop here b4 i feel worse abt thgs.. just gotta learn to accept it!

girl, you gotta have attitude
10:01:00 PM

Monday, August 02, 2004

lalallaaa~ i cut my hair le.. 1st time i cut short after ny allows us to have long hair.. so well thats like few yrs le.. hmm really took quite alot of courage to make this decision.. k sounds spas but true.. so attached to my hair.. haha.. well aniwae.. n wads the worst thg.. i told the hairdresser i wanna cut short.. n he was like.. huh so short ar.. it looks gd lidat.. wah den all his crap made me so tempted to just leave my hair alone.. but well i've made up my mind! n i think it's better if i cut so well yep still wanted it short.. but apparently he didnt cut that short also.. heck.. was quite a disaster when i looked into the mirror at the salon.. but well i'm not gonna regret any decision i made.. haha came home tried to do sth to it.. put my nice hairband on.. k lah not that bad after all.. but the pt is my hairband doesnt serve its purpose to push my hair back.. but well now its purpose is to make my hair look better.. hahahah.. crap.. oh well there's this stoopid foto taking session for the track team tmr.. n the track team is so pathetic small.. pls help to get anyone interested to come join track!! b4 our team die off..

oh well guess i shld really study.. promos is like 2 mths away n how can i still b so slack.. there's alot of thgs that i'm still unclear of.. n yes u shld study NOW!!!

girl, you gotta have attitude
9:18:00 PM

Sunday, August 01, 2004

just quite tired to blog n talk abt my life.. ya basically back from the overseas cip selection camp yest.. was quite a gd experience at the camp.. learnt alot from the games.. hafta cleanup the cafe/canteen.. nv know wads the true meaning of cleaning up until yest.. most of the time we simply use detergent n water n just 'clean' the place.. take it for granted that it is clean.. but if we try out best n scrub really hard.. we can remove much more dirt den b4.. yepx n the endurance run was quite a gd experience.. nv thot i could do a long jog for 45 mins.. we were not told how long n how far we are supposed to run.. we were all going at our own pace.. my mind was just telling myself to keep going.. sort of forgot abt the pain n aches.. and each time i past someone would try to encourage the person.. was a way to motivate myself to go on.. ya basically that was the stuff which left the greatest impact in me..

nats is over.. time to catch up with studies.. gotta manage my life well.. know what i hafta do.. b4 the camp got scolded by ms tan.. really set me reflecting wad kinda leader i am.. the title is simply more that just for track.. i hafta uphold this title whereever i am.. not gonna repeat the mistake again..

to those captains, president wadeva out there: be a good leader in your own way.. not all leaders act in the same way.. just know what is the right thg u hafta do!

yep aniwae here's sth i copied from an email.. it really struck me.. some of them is just so me.. i've nv realise it all these while.. oh well dunno how true is the colour crap.. but yepx sth worth reading!

really miss ny.. miss ny track.. miss all of u.. miss the time we spent tog.. miss the wonderful nats we had tog.. really glad that i've known u guys n yepx i truly love u pple!

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:41:00 PM

Did you know?

Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weaklings and most succeptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are : I love you, Sorry and help me. The people who say these are those that actually need them or really feel them, and they are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.

Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy their beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that those who need more of you are those that did not mention it to you?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writting than saying it to someone in the face? But did you know that it has more value when you say it in the face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned of,and you know that you can help,you'll see that it will be returned in two folds.

girl, you gotta have attitude
3:33:00 PM

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